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10. Apology

"Do you mind if I come over?" I then asked her.

I nearly laughed this time, the way her eyes widened so much and her brows shot up.

But then I internally panicked when she took the longest time to answer. She was definitely contemplating it, but the more silence there was between us, the more I felt like I should get back into my car and drive off somewhere.

"If you want?" She then said, with that confused expression on her face once again. "But my parents aren't home if you wanted something," she added.

Did she think I wanted to see her parents?

"I actually wanted to speak to you," I told her, walking around the fence between our houses.

This was getting a bit weird talking to her over a fence. Seemed like a better idea to just be in front of her. Although as I came closer to her, I was a little worried that I was voluntarily bringing myself into a situation where she was near enough to punch me.

I really hope she doesn't punch me.

I stood in front her and waited, but it seemed a little more like she was in daze. She mainly got like this when in front of red velvet cupcakes if I remember correctly. Maybe she was thinking of them?

"You gonna let me in?" I asked her, which I think broke her out of her daze.

Before I could internally panic again and think she would refuse, Rena spoke up. "Uhh, yeah sure. Come in," she said.

I walked in and was really not sure on what to do. I put my hands in my pockets, because suddenly I had no clue what I usually did with my hands. Do I talk with them and do hand gestures?

I wasn't able to look into her eyes for some reason and I just looked around her house.

"Liam? Are you okay? Nothing hit you? Hurt you? You didn't fall?" Rena then suddenly bombarded me with all these questions. 

Why was she asking me all of that?

"What? No. I'm fine. I-I just wanted to talk to you," I then said. Did that sound confident enough? Did she notice the stutter?

"Okay well, you know where the living room is, let's go and talk," Rena then said, why did she said talk like that?

I walked into her living room and sat on the sofa.

Shit, this is nerve-racking.

I don't even know how to look at her and I'm pretty sure I'm sweating right now. I hope she doesn't notice that.

"I-I uh.." I tried to talk, but all words and my voice then failed me.

'Great, somehow I've developed a stutter as well.'

"Liam really is everything okay? I mean we don't really talk and suddenly you're in my house being really weird" Rena said, looking at me weirdly.

Crap, I'm weirding her out.

Of course, I am. I'm just sitting in her house, not saying anything and also acting like a total weirdo.

I looked at Rena again, seeing the nervous look she was giving me and I realised that before again, I have to apologise to her. She deserves an apology, for everything I've ever done.

"I'm sorry," I finally said - or rather blurted out.

Seeing her eyes widen, I realised that she didn't expect that. I mean why would she, it's been pending for so long and I only just said it now.