Assassin with a Heart//Camren//

Chapter 12

"Hi Camila.", Camila heard Irene's voice from the back of her.

Camila turned around on her bed to face the brunette. Why she was here? Camila had no idea, but surely could make a good guess.

"Um hello Irene.", Camila greeted quietly.

"Can we um.. talk for a sec?", Irene asked shyly.

Camila couldn't help but feel the little heart skip when she say how shy Irene was acting. Usually Camila would see her so ambitious and confident that it kinda made Camila jealous how she have such attitude. Now seeing her seem so small kinda boosted Camila's posture.

Irene shuffled her way to Camila's bed, taking a seat right at the edge, and facing Camila. She played with her fingers a bit nervously. Camila watched Irene's actions carefully. She may not be the strongest, but her dad has always said she has the mind set and intelligence of a mafia leader.

"I think we should do this whole marriage thing.", Irene blurted out after a few awkward moments of silence.

Camila's heart dropped. What? She actually wanted to do this? After yesterday how she reacted?

"I'm sorry?", Camila questioned just in case she heard that correctly.

"I think we should get married Camila. I mean think of it. Our mafias have been allies before we even were a thought in mind. Plus we're both small groups and if we joined together just imagine how much we could thrive. Sure we might not be as powerful as the Jauregui's or the Hansen's, but it will still give us some type of advantage.", Irene exclaimed.

Camila thought of this for awhile. Irene does make a very valid point. Before Camila was introduced to the Mendoza's she remembers her dad telling her the many things the two mafias have done together in the past. The history, the sacrifices, and the agreements that were made between the groups. It's honestly surprising they haven't thought of forming as after working with each other for so long.

The mafias were both not the strongest, but it wouldn't be surprising they some how grow as one. But Camila can't get over that fact that this whole marriage thing would be just for the group. It won't be beneficial for her at all. Camila at least wanted to be wedded with someone she actually loves. Irene and her barely just met and were expected to be married?

That didn't set right with Camila at all.

"Look Irene I get it how great it would be for both groups. I'm not trying to be selfish or hurt your feelings, but I don't want to be married to you. I just can't.", Camila sighed.

"And why not?", Irene asked curiously.

"I don't want to be married to someone I just met. I don't even like you that way.", Camila said.

Irene smirked "Didn't seem like that when you were looking at me yesterday."

Camila blushed a bit. Dammit she thought it wasn't noticable considering how dimly lighted everything was at the meeting.

"What I can't appreciate a pretty girl's body?", Camila asked.

"I mean you can, but I felt like you had other intentions.", Irene whispered as she bit her bottom lip.

Camila felt herself grow weak as she sees Irene making these actions that are driving her crazy. Lust is completely different from love. Yes, Camila may be infactuated with Irene's body it doesn't mean she loves her.

"Sorry Irene, but I just can't. I can't marry you.", Camila says as she stands up.

Irene shrugs "That's a shame... considering you don't necessarily have a choice anymore."

Camila looks at Irene confusingly  "What the hell do you mean by that?"

"Well our fathers were originally going to let us have a choice, but they have been so excited about this whole thing that now this whole "thing" is being forced into.", Irene said as she stands up and walks to Camila.

"So now", Irene whispers as she grabs Camila and pushes her down on the bed straddling her, "you belong to me."

Irene traps Camila's lips with hers and as much as Camila despises it she curses at her body for reacting in desperation to Irene. She could the smirk grow on the girl on top of her's face. As soon as Camila feels Irene tug at her shirt Camila swiftly pushes Irene away.

"No... I don't belong to you. We can be together, but we can't be together.", Camila said.

Irene shrugged "One of these days when we're married I'll make you love me."

Camila couldn't help but gag as she escorts Irene out of her room. Irene places a peck on Camila's lips and walks away. The disgust lingers greatly in Camila's stomach.

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"Fuck why are you hereeeee you know I get a boner everytime I see you.", Lauren's best friend, Dinah, groans.

"Oh suck it up and stop getting horny everytime you see me.", Lauren teases.

"Well I can't fucking help it! You have no idea what your damn eyes do to me.", Dinah pouts as she starts feeling quite uncomfortable in her pants.

"I'm more than aware and I find it hilarious. Just tell Ari to suck you off.", Lauren says as she lights a joint.

"Ariana ain't here. She's been on a mission for the past week.", Dinah sighs.

"Damn really? You miss her don't ya?", Lauren asks.

"Hell yeah I do! That's my baby man.", Dinah exclaims.

"Ah love... such a difficult, bittersweet weakness.", Lauren says nonchalantly.

"Just you wait until you find the one Lauser. That one damn person who can just captivate you with a single glance, the one that has a simple smile that'll make you weak to the knees, that one person you wanna protect at all fucking cost. It's gonna hit hard.", Dinah says.

"It's nothing but a distraction Dj. Love is strange and most of the time strange things are the biggest distractions.", Lauren said.

"It's a blessing Lauren trust me. Plus your dad loves you and your mom loved you. You call that a weakness?", Dinah questioned.

"That's a different kind of love though Dinah. That's parental love not... coupley love that you and Ari have.", Lauren said.

"I guess you've made your point on that one, but I'm just saying Lauren one of these damn days someone is gonna catch your attention and they'll be the only one that will have your attention. None of these girls you have one night stands with or that work at a damn strip club. No. They'll be your partner for life.", Dinah says happily.

"Whatever you say.", Lauren says.

There was no possible way Lauren could love. She's been driven to a point where love isn't even a thought in mind. It's all the big picture. That bad big picture. Serve the mafia by killing and showing no mercy. Be driven by the taste of blood. There was no time to seek the smaller details. To seek the gushy stuff that Dinah has obviously been drowned into.

Lauren could never love.