Can anything actually be steady and calming?
Everything changes to abruptly and unfortunately.
It's frightening and painful, chaotic even.
As soon as happiness comes everything reminds you that this is soon going to be over.
The waves of anxiety and hopelessness slowly drowns the happiness you have to fight for everyday.
When all you want to do is scream and break down and yell at someone, " You see how much Freaking pain I'm in now?!"
And yet you stay silent and distract yourself...cause maybe if you can distract yourself long enough you can forget about anything distressing
You can only remember the happiness... and that's all it takes day after day.
