Gotta Be You [Complete]

Chapter 3

“What’s new?” he said. I noticed that he was slowly inching closer to me until our legs were touching. I pretended not to notice and I crossed my legs so that they weren’t touching Harry’s anymore. I saw his smile go away for a second when I pulled away from him but he quickly recovered and smiled again. 

“Not much, me and Niall are thinking about getting a dog but there’s the whole being away on tour situation but, yeah, nothing else new,” I replied, I saw his smile falter again once I said ‘me and Niall’ but I couldn’t make myself guilty over it, “how about you?”

He cleared his throat and said, “Not much, same old same old.” With that he faced forward and looked down at his hands before Niall and Liam arrived with our food. Niall sat down on my other side and started giving everyone their food.

“I’m not that hungry,” I said, when he offered me my food. I had suddenly lost my appetite after the conversation I just had with Harry.

I felt so bad once I saw the look on his face while we were talking. How long has he started liking me again? Have I just not noticed him? I kind of saw him sometimes looking longingly at me when I was with Niall but I thought nothing of it because I thought he was over me. I thought that he just wanted something with another girl like what Niall and I have, but not with me.

I noticed Harry wasn’t eating either and was still looking at his hands. I wanted to talk to him about it but it wasn’t the right time. Not here with everyone with us.

“Hey, you guys wanna come over and have some drinks in the backyard and just hang out?” I said. I quickly thought of something to do with everyone, hoping that I’d get the chance to talk to Harry alone about everything.

“Yeah, sounds fun, we have nothing planned today” Lou said, looking at El, who nodded.

“I’ll text Dani and see if she can make it,” Liam said, before taking a sip from his water and pulling out his phone to text Dani.

“I’m sure Perrie can come, too, yeah,” Zayn said doing the same as Liam.

I looked at Harry, who still didn’t say anything.

“Harry?” I said, putting my hand on his shoulder. I felt him flinch at my touch before slowly looking at me. The way he was looking at me made me remember the times when we were together, at the beginning of our relationship when we couldn’t stay away from each other and the loving way he would look at me. I cleared my throat and said, “are you able to come tonight?”

The look in his eyes slowly faded and he gave me a small smile before saying, “yeah, I’d love to.” I gave him a smile back and looked away, anywhere else other than into his eyes.

What had just happened? I couldn’t be thinking about Harry like this again. I love Niall. More than anything in the world. This was just a momentary thing, nothing big. I’ll just have to wait until I can talk to him tonight. Until then, I’ll just have to avoid him as much as possible.

I would never hurt Niall, I would kill myself if I did. I put my hand on Niall’s leg and gently squeezed it. He looked at me and smiled and gave me a quick peck on my lips. I smiled back at him, hoping that Harry didn’t see.

What am I saying? I shouldn’t be worried about Harry seeing, he knows that I love Niall and I always will. He’s seen me kiss Niall millions of times and it didn’t seem like he had a problem with it…until now. I saw him clench his hands into fists the second Niall kissed me but he quickly relaxed once Lou asked him if he was okay. 

“Yeah, I’m fine, I just need some air,” Harry said, in a monotone voice, before getting up and walking out of the restaurant. I watched him as he left and saw him walk around the corner and out of sight. Everyone was oblivious to what actually happened except me, Lou and El.

“I’ll go see if he’s okay,” Lou said, getting up and heading towards the direction that Harry went. I’ll admit, I was worried about Harry, I didn’t like seeing him hurt either. I just didn’t know what to do.

Once they had finished eating we all headed out of the restaurant. I saw Harry get into Lou’s car once we got outside. We all got into our cars and headed to our place.

**

We arrived at our place after Zayn and Liam picked up Perrie and Danielle. Everyone grabbed food and drinks from the kitchen and brought it outside to the backyard.

Everyone did their own thing for a while, just sitting and drinking, going in the pool, talking. Once it got dark Niall set a little campfire and everyone sat around it.

We were just talking, played a few rounds of truth or dare and ‘Would You Rather’. Then everyone started having their own conversations with each other. Niall was talking to Liam so I took this opportunity to talk to Harry since he was just sitting there with a beer in his hands, not talking to anyone.

“Hey, I’m just going to get some more food and drinks, I’ll be right back,” I told Niall, standing up.

“Okay, babe,” he said, standing up and giving me a quick kiss then sitting back down and continuing to converse with Liam.

“Umm, Harry, could you help me?” I looked at him, trying to seem casual. He seemed surprised when I spoke to him but he nodded and got up and we walked inside the house. Every step I took closer to the house, the faster my heart beat and the more I got nervous.

We entered the kitchen and I grabbed some chips and a case of beer and put it on the counter.

“I’ll bring the drinks out,” Harry said, reaching for the beer.

I stopped him by putting my hand on top of his, which was on the case of beer. Once again, I felt him flinch at my touch but he didn’t make any gesture to remove his hand. 

“I actually wanted to talk to you about something,” I said, trying hard not to sound nervous as I let go of his hand.

“Um, yeah, sure, what’s up?” he said, looking at me intently.

“Can we talk somewhere more private?” I said, looking out of the sliding door windows where I could see everyone else, which means that they could see me and Harry. Also, I didn’t want anyone walking in on us while we were talking.

“Yeah, okay” he said, nodding.

“Let’s go to my room,” I said, I wasn’t sure if the bedroom was the right place to talk to him but it was the best place to talk to without getting interrupted. So I headed to my bedroom with Harry following closely behind.