Wrong Ties

Chapter Nine

It's been a week since the party. Yet me and Noah hadn't talked nor seen each other since.
Noah rang me but since my step father came home the night after making me have no choice but to ignore his calls. I felt disgusted. not at him nor the kiss but at the fact that Noahs hands are not the only hands roaming my body.

When Monday came around Noah never showed up to school, i was kinda disappointed although him not coming to school was more better than avoiding him. Kalani kept reminding me to ask about the senior camp that was coming up and as much as I didn't want to go i had too for experience or whatever.

After the party, Noah drove me home then that was that. We looked at each other for 20 minutes just gazing into each others eyes, before we went our seperate ways, he leaned in and we were making out yet again for a good enough time before i felt the need to vomit from the earlier consumed alcohol.

I didn't sleep much that night, my thoughts of me and Noah kissing replayed over and over again in my head.It was like it was haunting me, what does this mean now? Are we a thing? Or a couple i was lost for words and thoughts. Noah doesn't date and i know that but what was the kiss about then.

My step father, John came back home from his business trip and as usual he tortured me more. As for the rest of the week, he stopped. I was so relieved that I didn't have to face him again in my bedroom, or anywhere else for that matter. But an question kept appearing in my mind, why?.

He would have me make him breakfast then leave after and returning late at night. He didn't come to my room once so I kept my distance from him just so this pattern of him not taking advantage of me anymore would hopefully continue.Although i was happy he stopped i still wondered why he decided to stop. Did he finally feel guilty? Realise I wasn't my mother or got bored? Those questions alone roamed my mind.Sometimes i wish my mom was alive just to see the pain she left me in, she could've at least taken me with her. All these new feelings are too much for me to handle.

The very next day, it was a Saturday and i slowly walked down the stairs planning on how to ask john if i could go to the senior camp that was coming up. I was fully clothed, covering every bit of my skin just so he wouldn't feel tempted or something. John was resting on his arm chair, with a cigar in the middle of his parted lips and he looked busy texting, I walked towards him and stood in front of him blocking the sunlight just so he knew i was in is presence, Surely enough he knew i was standing there.

He slowly looks up to me with his dark eyes. "What do you want?" He snickers looking back at his phone.

Before saying anything i take a deep breath, hoping and praying this goes well. John likes things in return so i had to really hope."Uh our school is planning a senior camp, well for you know us seniors, and i was wondering if i could go". I breathz

John looks up for a second before goancing back at his phone as he receives a notification, notifying him he got a text.

"Sure, i need you out of the house anyway" he blurts out as if he's annoyed. My eyes went from looking at my feet to being shot wide, okay good. "Thank you" i blurt out before hastily rushing back to my room and calling kalani immediately to let her know i

I was mostly surprised, Well simply because i wasn't allowed basically anywhere. Well unless john wasn't home, And usually when i ask john for things he makes me do things for it. Obviously I didn't because it wasn't worth it but he tortured me anyway in the worst way possible.

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The senior camp was in a week, and i had completely forgot about it. By the amount of days Noah has taken of, i couldn't help but assume that he wouldn't come to the camp as well or maybe he forgot.
As each day passed i couldn't help but wonder what he was doing, or what he was thinking about.

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It was 2 days before the camp and i hadn't packed yet, I slowly make my way to my room and pack a duffel bag for the camp. The camp was seven days, basically a week, ad i had yet to be prepared.

I packed most of my baggy shirts, sweaters and enough jeans and shorts to last a week. The camp flyer mentioned we would be swimming and doing outdoor activity.I'd be down to just sit in a cabin and read but this isn't the case.I look down at a bathing suit kalani bought for me a while ago. It's black, Simple but cute. I chuck it in knowing I wouldn't wear it. But theres always a slight chance.

A buzzing noise from my phone startles me and i slump over my bed to retrieve my phone, i unlock my phone read the message, it's Noah. My hands turn sweaty and i get nervous.

Meet me at mine.

I analyse the text and debated wether or not i should go or not. I probably should, i mean I've been ignoring him to the point he ignored me, with my thoughts not making sense I race down stairs, in a baggy led zeppelin shirt that reached down to my knees, i had shorts on underneath obviously and paired it with my Converse high tops,John was out so that meant i could just leave.

Noah lived a block away from me so i walked to him not wanting to risk john seeing me in the car. I had reached Noahs door and before i had a chance to knock he opens the door and gestures me to come in then guides me up to his room.As soon as I stepped foot in his room I didn't examine it as I usually would i just stared at my shoes trying to avoid eye contact, While playing with the hem of my shirt, lifting it so now you could see my denim shorts.Noahs eyes wouldn't leave my sight his eyes were like daggers stabbing into me. He seemed like he was trying to read me or examine me, both are intimidating. The silence between us made it easier to notice the tension between us. It was a mix between anger and lust.

Surprising myself i break the silence
"So why did you call me here?" I ask in an almost whisper glancing towards him, our eyes meeting, It takes a minute for him to reply.

Except he didn't say anything, His reply contained his lips against mine. He leaned in and places a soft yet deep kiss against my lips.
I didn't want to give into the kiss but i did anyway. It's hard not too.

This kiss was different it was more passionate and much more harder than the first one.He pulled me closer to his body and picked me up with his arm instantly making me wrap my legs around his waist, my whole body is ignited and I can't seem to stop kissing him, neither can he.
Without breaking our kiss, Noah uses one hand to hold me in place and his other hand rests on my flushed cheeks. I turn my head slightly and deepen the kiss, letting out a soft and shy moan.

He places me on his soft bed so now I'm laying on my back, kissing me harder, hungrier. i pull away from the kiss hoping it wouldn't go any further but i had no luck, Noah then trails kisses along my neck then which may leave marks, Faint moans left my trembling lips and My breathing was getting heavier. Noahs hands searched my body, touching every inch.When suddenly he places his hands softly grazing along my skin, my skin burned at his touch down along between my thighs. I start to panic as i felt Noah's erection through my opening , thats alone gave me flashbacks of my stepfather.

The haunting memories came rushing through my head, breaking me more and more. My eyes open and I couldn't help but feel tears from escaping my eyes. I push Noah of as quickly and hard as i could and ran out his room, his door, his house.

Not knowing if I'll ever return.