Infatuated

seventeen.

I go into the room next to Matt's first which happens to be Robert and Ciaráns room. I open the door not too loud and I swift in the little crack I opened for myself. I see Robert in the closet getting his stuff together, and I wave towards him and he waves back. "Wake his bitch ass up!" Robert whispers at me and I nod at him. I stand up on the bed very carefully and soon as I realize I'm on, I START TO JUMP HARDER THAN I WOULD AT A BROCKHAMPTON CONCERT.

"Wha? AHHHH STOP YOU BETTER FUCKING STOP KATALINA I SWEAR TO FUCKING GOD IF YOU DONT STOP I WILL THROW YOU OUT THE FUCKING WINDOW BITCH." I hear Ciarán say in his Irish accent and Robert starts dying of laughter on the floor which causes me to laugh. "It's time to get up hoe. We need to leave to the airport in like 10 minutes." Ciarán immediately sprints to the bathroom and starts getting ready which means I've done my job. "Good day sir" I say curtsying Matt's oversized hoodie as if it were a skirt. "Bye." Robert says as I exit the room closing the door behind me.

Then I go to the next room which was Romil, Jabari, Kevin D, and Jon's room. I have no idea how they all decide to share a room together oh my fuck. I open the door and see all of the boys were up. "Hey guys, just making sure you were up." I say waving to all of the boys. "It's cool Katalina, I called like 4 UBERS for all of us." Jabari says and I nod in acceptance. "Cool, I'm gonna wake up Dom, Joba and Merlyn now." I say shutting the door. "Wait bitch." Kevin says and stops the door from closing. "I fucking love you hoe." He says and does his little heart symbol with his hand. "Love you too hoe." As I do the sign back to him smiling at our friendship.

I knew for sure Ian was up since he yelled at me and Matt. So I lastly woke Joba, Merlyn, and Dom. I peek into their room to see all of them sleeping. Good I whisper to myself and I walk towards Merlyn. "Oh my god is that Journey, Ocean and Mercedes from Infatuation." I say into Merlyns ear and he springs up and looks around. "Mannnnn fuck you K. I really thought fucking they were there." Merlyn says to me and we both start to giggle. "Hey, what should I do to wake up Joba and Dom?" I ask him and he nods at me. "WAKE UP WE GOT LIKE 5 MINUTES TO LEAVE THIS FUCKING HOUSE." Merlyn yells at Joba and Dom, they started getting ready faster than I could ever and I thank Merlyn and leave their room.

That went easier that I thought. I walked back to Matt's room and I open the door to see Matt dressed in a dark blue sweatshirt and some black jeans holding his suitcase and backpack smiling at me. He looks like a 3rd grader on his first day at school and I couldn't help but chuckle. "What?" Matt says while giving me the "I'm offended but I love you a lot." look and I just walk up to him. "I fucking love you." I say and he blushes and I hug him as tight as I can. "CMON BITCHES THE UBERS HERE!!!" I hear Ian say very loud and clear and I release Matt. "Okay let me get my stuff and I'll meet you out there?" I say at Matt and he nods. He leaves the room and I gather my things that were in the bathroom and stuffed them in my backpack. I walk back in Matt's room making sure he didn't forget anything and he actually didn't. I smile to myself and leave the room. To my surprise everyone is outside so I decided to join them. Last night me and Matt decided I should go to the airport with him for one last goodbye. Fuck.

I walk into the main hallway and I leave out the front door and shut it behind me locking it. "Hey baby." Matt says after I get outside and puts his arm around me. I snuggle with him to keep warm. "Uber's here." Kevin D says to all of us and Kevin Doan, Robert, Ciarán and Merlyn are in one Uber. Joba, Jon, Jabari and Dom are in another Uber. Ashlan, Kiko, and Romil are in the 3rd Uber and Ian, Jaden, Matt and I are in the last Uber. We all proceed into our Uber's making ourselves comfy while we ride to the Airport.

We arrive at the airport and the whole time I was in the car I couldn't help but name things I would miss Matt by. We step out of the Uber and meet the other boys at the gate since we were kind of late. First we got our ticket and then went through TSA. We finally got to the gate and I hear over the intercom "10 minutes until boarding. I repeat 10 minutes until boarding." and my sadness begins to grow. Matt looks around the gate and all of the seats were taken. "Hey, do you want to get on the window?" Matt asks me and I look up at him pointing to the window with a thick ledge. I nod with a frown on my face and we walk over to the window and sit on opposite sides of each other on the ledge.

"Hey, I'm sorry if I look fucking crummy. It's just." I start to tear up. "What is it?" Matt asks and holds my hand. "Fuck, I love you a lot and I don't want you to leave so soon. But I feel like I'm being a bitch because this is your dream and I feel like I'm fucking it all over and I'm sorry. I am happy for you, I truely am but I just wish we spent more time together that's all." I say letting a tear out of the corner of my eye and looking at the ground. Matt scoots over to me. "Hey, hey Katalina." He says lifting my chin up with his finger making me look into those beautiful eyes I hate so much because I won't see him for a while. "I love you. I love everything about you. Even when you're crummy as fuck. I wish we spent more time together too but just think about all the beautiful memories we have together. I was going to wait until I come back to give you this but, I feel like I should give it to you now." He reaches in his pocket and pulls out a gold locket and hands it over to me. I look at the gold heart shaped locket and I feel my eyes getting heavy with water. "Open it." Matt says looking at me awaiting my reaction. I open the locket and revealed is a picture of me and Matt in the hospital the day I broke my ankle. A tear strolls down my cheek. "Why this photo?" I asked curiously. "Because it was the day I finally realized that I loved you. When you were in that hospital bed sleeping, I just thought to myself 'I wish it was me so she wouldn't get hurt.' Then I realized that if you are willing to sacrifice yourself for someone else then you must love them. It's true. I love you." Said Matt with a tear in his eye while all of mine were being released. I'm so fucking emo oh my god. "Can you put it on for me?" I ask him and he agrees. We get off of the ledge and we stand up and I turn around. I hand him the locket and he puts it on me and I turn back around so I'm facing him again. "Thank you Matt, you are the best thing that has ever happened to me. I love you." I say and he starts to lean in as I do the same and our lips collided. It felt like I was kissing him for the very first time all those months ago. "It is time to board. I repeat. It is time to board." The intercom played and I released from our kiss and instead I give him a hug. A very long hug. He released from the embrace as do I and he cups my face with his hands. "Good luck." I muffly say to him and he kisses me on my forehead. "Now. Go finish school! You have so much to catch up on, and I want to spend the whole summer with you. Make it the best 4 months it could ever possibly be." He says with a smile right after. "I love you." We say to each other at the same time which causes us to laugh. "Okay, it's time for you to go. Have fun. If you need me I'm just a FaceTime call away." I say and Matt let's go of my cheeks. "Class 1 is boarding." We hear over the intercom. "It's time to go." Matt has a tear running down his face. I wipe it away. "I'm gonna miss you." Matt says and I give him one last hug before he has to board. "I'm gonna miss you too. It's time for you to go." I say wrapped in his arms. He releases and do I from our embrace and starts walking to the boarding station thingy. He looks back at me and I blow him a kiss. He catches it and puts it on his cheek.

He leaves.