I wasn't sure if I would keep writing, but here it is.
I'm really at the lowest point mentally since I started fighting this. I'm back to being encouraged to eat, and were it not for Anna, would so have purged today.
I'm frustrated and angry, really, yesterday I lost two friends online through no fault of mine, then lots of others. One I regret perhaps, the other, I deserve better.
There's nothing worse than betrayal, people pretending like... to care and like you, when like really they're mega selfish.
Today I have tried music, reading, walking with Anna, but nothing matters. All the color is gone.
People do still love me, Ciaran, Kimmy, Chloe Bear, Anna, Shoshanna. I am grateful for that.
Setback: Betrayal, and letting it own me.
Victory: I'm still fighting
Affirmation: Screw the haters, I'm better
