Escaped

Before

Before you
I refused to regret
I lived by the belief
That everything I did had a reason
That everything was for the greater good
But you came along
And messed up my world
Beyond any kind of recognition
And now everything is upside down
And turned around
And I'm lost amidst it
I don't know how this happened
I don't know why either
All I know is I miss you
With all my heart and all my soul
And all I regret in this world
Is wasting my chance
Of being happy with you
Because now I'm forced to see
How happy you are without me
And I realise I did you a favour
But did the opposite for myself
And even though I'm happy for you
Even though I wanted you to feel this way
I just wish it was about me
And not about her
But life isn't perfect
In fact it's far from it
So I'll live with my broken heart
And pretend I pieced it back together
I'll even lie to myself
Until even I can't distinguish real from fake
Because that'll hurt less
Than accepting you left me a mess