You're The Reason

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beam's pov

exam block is fucking hard.. 

Mostly the all the works make me want to burn it and make it the piece.. I need something to release my tension.. Phana and kit was busy study without me.. 

They know the end I will join them after I got what I want.. Sex.. yeah.. That one I want now... that can make me forget this tension...

Bar

"Hi beam... Try your luck hah?" posh one of my friends say.

"Yeah.. I'm in mood.." i answer with full energy and excited.

But in time I am having girl in my arm I see someone..

My first love..Maybe the only love I know..

Flashback on..

"Beam... I like you naa.. Be mine?" he say 

at the park that we always together when we not going anywhere.

"But... "

it so suddenly when he ask me that question... i didn't even know that he like man or into to man.

"Na.. Beam.. We can make.. Try it first naa."

he say slowly and with soft voice.

"But forth.. Why so suddenly.. Anything happen to you? want to share?"

"Nope.. Nothing... We been together as friend for 6 month.. I realized that I like you.. Accept me na.."

"But forth..."

"Na beam..na na"

he still hold what he want. 

Why so suddenly.. 

I admit that I like forth but I didn't know what kind like I had for him .. Friend? More than that? I admit forth always with me.. He is good friend but there something happen here..

"Forth... " i call that name

i want to .. hold him.. feel that feeling.. 

"Yeah.. Yours.." i decide it for only a second i want to..

"mine..I'm happy .." he say and hug me.

i am very happy having forth as my boyfriend.. He just a perfect guys..

Flashback end

"Beam.. Where to go.. Yours or mine?"

that girl stay play with my neck with her finger.

Yours.. Mine..

"I'm sorry naa.. I can't.. "

just hear that word make remember more about him.

Then I just run...How hopeless me now..The heart.. beating like crazy. My mind racing .. it betrayal me right now

"I love you beam.. Always.. "

The word keep repeat in my mind..I run and run to my car. Start the engine and move just want to go far ... Just to arise my mind..

Forth.. Why you do this to me ?..

you say love but why must i am the one who hurt?

happy reading guys..