Supernatural Imagines

Insecurities~ Dean Winchester

Walking into the library I see Sam sitting at the table reading something per usual though I couldn’t spot  the other Winchester anywhere. Looking around the library my eyes land back on Sam as I ask, “Hey Sam, have you seen Dean?” “Uh, yeah actually him and Charlie went to hang out for a little while I research a new case,” he explains glancing up at me before adding, “They’re close and plus she’s a lesbian so don’t worry.” I know he was saying that because he knew I liked his brother and he seen the look in my eyes, but this was for different reasons. Both of them always talked good about Charlie though I have never met her myself. But that was because I never seemed to be around when she was. I was always helping someone on a case in some city or helping Bobby at his house, but it never seemed to bother me not meeting someone so close in the boys life. Deep down I was okay with it because I knew both of us would be pining to hang with the boys especially if it wasn’t for a case. I also didn’t know how it would feel if it came down to picking between the two and they didn’t pick me. It was my fault all the case’s came up or Bobby would need my help, normally I would have a warning, a chance to leave, “Why did no one tell me she was coming?” I asked eventually kind of confused about the guest. “We weren’t expecting it,” Sam says with a shrug going back to the book. I nod even though he wasn’t looking at me and walk off towards my room hoping that whatever the two were out doing didn’t take very long. Me and Dean had plans today since Sammy was researching a hunt, we always hang out as much as we can before a hunt and we leave tomorrow for one. // By the time dinner rolled around neither of them were heard from at all, I for one was annoyed and hungry though I know I was the only one. I walked into the kitchen deciding on making something they could easily heat up whenever they decided to grace us with their presence before taking mine and Sam's plates to the table he was still sitting in from earlier. When I handed him his plate he shot me a thank you going right back to work on the case digging into his plate without another word. “So find anything new about the case?” I ask trying to make conversation with him. “Uh, yeah actually it’s a simpler case than we thought it would be.”

“That’s great, Dean will be happy to hear we won’t be gone too long for this one.” “Yeah he is, I kind of told him earlier when he called me to say he was taking Charlie to eat so we didn’t have to make extra,” Sam explained causing me to become confused and hurt though I pushed it to the side and nodded. “So when are we leaving tomorrow, did he say?” “We um we are taking Charlie actually,” Sam begins to say

“Okay so when are we leaving?” I ask still not catching on to what he is implying. “We are leaving in the morning, first thing. But Y/n we are taking Charlie and this hunt doesn’t need four people, you understand what i’m trying to say right?” Sam says finally, looking at me with an apologetic look. I didn’t say anything else, I just nodded in response and finished my dinner not saying another thing as I headed back to the kitchen washing my dish before going back to my room. My thoughts were running a mile a minute in every direction though the only thoughts I could seem to focus on were the negative, ‘They don’t need you know more they have her, at least they won’t have to worry about her falling for one of them.’ ‘You mess up all the time it’s for the better anyways.’ ‘They’re not even going to notice you’re not there.’ ‘They are probably just thrilled to be away from you’ //I never heard Dean and Charlie come back to the bunker, I never even heard them leave, but when I woke up this morning when I woke up the bunker was completely empty. I walked to the kitchen to make some coffee and I found a note left on the counter, We’re headed out, well will call to check in or if we need information. Sam. Reading the note I went back to the real reason I entered the kitchen, the coffee. Once I had my coffee and some breakfast I walked towards the library to read up on what the boys were facing that way I could get some information built up for when they called. I ended up cleaning the whole bunker including doing both the guys baskets of dirty laundry and my own, but I was still yet to get a call from the boys which was worrisome since they normally called the moment they got there.