How I see myself is different than how others see me. And I'm sure other girls fee this way too. Apparently it's common.
People see me as a beautiful tall girl. She's confident and strong. She'll have to fight off the boys! But in reality that's far from how I see me.
I see myself as too tall and not even pretty, let alone beautiful. In my eyes I'm fat and not good enough. Everyday I tell myself that I'll never be good enough for anyone.
I don't wear make up and my hair isn't long and pretty. I'm not the girl that guys fight over and I'm not the girl that other girls want to be. I'm the girl other people blow off.
I'm not popular or funny. I'm book smart. I'm a nerd or geek. I'm not talented.
When people see me, they see a pretty girl that is tall. I see an overly tall girl with a lot of flabs and rolls on her stomach. I see thunder thighs and big feet. I see a round face and flabby arms. I see muffin top and stretch marks. I see unflattering scars that no one else sees.
I see a failure. An obnoxious, fat, ugly failure.
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My Public Diary
Non-FictionThe inner thoughts I have each day. My release of stress and secrets. This is my personal public diary. (Triggering)
