LOVESICK

Chapter Eight:sweet spot

I broke the kiss to breathe, he just keeps going what the hell? Does he even breathe?
He kissed again deeper, I didn't want this I just want to sleep,

He soon got on top of me not breaking the kiss,  I waited for it to end but seems like he wanted something not to leave me,

"Kiss me back" he broke the kiss,
"I don't want to" I replied,
"I'm not asking you to, this is an order," he said as if I'd easily give in,

He smelled like whiskey, how did he even drink? Does he drink and murder people at the same time?

He kissed me again, I pushed him away
" get off of me you're drunk",
"I'm not drunk!" He yelled,

He pulled in closer, both of us were silent for a long time until he broke the silence,
"When you cry, my....my heart breaks" he brushed my hair with his hand,
"I want to kill everyone who makes you cry"

My eyes widened, and I paused for a good ten seconds...
"Then Ivan, Can you kill yourself?" I broke the silence,
I shouldn't have said that but it was the truth, he had made me cry so can he kill himself?

He smiled,
"Trust me, I've tried killing myself. you're not the only person who hates me"
I stared in shock, he tried to kill himself before?

"When I saw you and felt love for the first time,  I felt the only emotion that I lacked, and it was the best emotion I've experienced, I promised myself to keep you just for myself, no matter how much blood I was going to spill, I'm never going to let go of you"

I didn't say anything, he's drunk, he probably doesn't know what he's talking about,
He leaned again kissing me softly, I kissed him back giving him what he wanted, he pulled away satisfied, he dropped laying beside me, so if I give him what he wants he will leave me?

It was not long when he got up on top of me again,
"More" he smiled, I kissed him again and pulled back,
"More," he said again, And I kissed him again,
"More," he said for the third time, I sighed and kissed him again,
"More", at this point, I got frustrated and turned my head to the left facing the door,
"One last time" he forced my lips on his with an aggressive kiss,

I expected it to be a peck, but I returned his kiss anyways, after a rough 40 seconds of switching from left to right,
He pulled away, what the hell,  I just made out with a killer, good job Irene, this is your idea of finding an escape?

he collapsed on top of me, I waited for him to get up but I got no response,
"Ivan?"I called, but still, no response, did this bitch die?
"Ivan is you.."

"Shush" he covered my mouth,
"Let's stay like this for a minute" he held me tighter,

There is no way I can move with his weight over me, I pushed him lightly, I expected him to protest, but he was probably passed out by now, he just rolled over,

He lay beside me, I didn't know whether he'll wake up or not but I'm not sleeping next to him, I looked at the clock, and its 10:50,

I'm dead tired but where am I going? I didn't know but I held on to the choice of not sleeping next to him,

I removed the blanket and slowly slipped out,
He held my wrist half asleep and pulled me to him, "I told you to stay" he pulled me again with all his force and held onto my waist,

I had no choice but to slip back in, I turned away from him, but I could tell that he wasn't satisfied when he tried turning me to face him, he kept pulling my shoulder in weak force,

He was weak and he was fighting sleep, but he kept whining so I turned to him, his arm was under my head and my body pressed to his, he held me tighter, he was taller than me so, of course, I was pressed to his collar bone