Dear Me...

Day 78: 5/7/2018

So writing this chapter took a long time because my train of thought has flip flopped all over the place. First it was gonna be why I love writing, then it was gonna be why I love music, then it was gonna be a rant about pretty boys. Now I don't know what it is but it is something.

I'm not sure why but for the last few days I've just felt really morbid and I keep getting these random thoughts of bad things that I don't want to happen and I don't know why. So I'm just here trying to get past that by surrounding myself with a lot of cute things to keep me happy.

One of those things is the thought that I have the chance to keep going. Which is oddly optimistic for me, especially right now, but just the idea that I have the chance to pick myself up and keep trying to achieve my dreams is oddly calming (especially right now as I right this).

And that's about it for today. This is sort of different from how I usually do this but it was oddly nice, despite how brief it was.

Oh also the song up top is one I've been listening to a lot recently. I've really enjoyed more than I could've imagined actually