A Gangster Love Story

Chapter 58 - The Sacrifice

Just like how I left Ice. 

Ang sama ng ginawa ko, but this is for the better. I have to do this. And gahd it's been 3 years pero hindi ko pa rin mapatawad ang sarili ko. I can't. 

Pagkalabas ni Rence dumiretso na kaagad ako sa comfort room. I opened the shower and sabay ng pagtulo ng tubig sa katawan ang luha na kanina ko pang pinipigilan. 

Hinding hindi ko mapapatawad ang sarili ko. 

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Kotse ni Rence ang gamit namin, buti na lang at umuwi na si kuya Josh at Sha (may sarili silang tinitirhan) kasi baka sumama pa ang dalawang asungot na yon. 

I keep my eyes on the right side. ayoko kasing mapansin ni Rence na umiyak ako.  At tsaka ayokong isipin niya na mahal ko pa rin si Ice. Nakapagmove on na ako. 

"So sa dati ba tayo, or yung bagong vintage resto? What do you want babe?" he asked.

"Anywhere is fine" 

Why do I feel like this night will be the worst night of my life?

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We went to this new vintage looking 5 star restaurant. It looks really expensive pero alam ko namang si Rence ang gagastos so yeah. Haha. Takaw mode on. but still, I have to keep my figure. 

I was wearing my casual clothes so I feel like I'm underdress. Tapos nung tiningnan ko si Rence wearing his gray long sleeeves with blue tie, ang gwapo niya and almost every girls are looking at him. Sorry na lang sila because he's already taken. 

"I feel the need to go home and change, can we just go to other place?" I said while grimacing. Nahihiya ako. As a Corporate Communications Manager, nahihiya ako. 

"No, you look really beautiful in any dress or shirts you wear babe" Kumindat pa ang walanghiyang si Rence. 

We sat down and ordered. Almost the same with other resto pero mas expensive. Siguro mga 3 to 5 months pa lang tong place. Palibhasa paminsan minsan na lang ako nakakapag dinner sa labas kaya hindi ko napansin na may bagong resto. 

"What's the name of the place again?" I asked Rence. He was busy looking at his phone. He glance up and answered. 

"If I remember it right, A & I? or I & A?" he smiled. 

Fishy. 

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In fairness, ang sarap ng foods dito especially the fettucini. I'm sure babalik ako dito next time. Ang ganda din ng ambiance ng place. So classy and elegant. Hindi ko mapigilan ang sarili kong humanga. It feels like the place was ceated via emotions of the person who owned it. 

I love this place. Soothing. 

"Is there something wrong?" sabi ni Rence habang nakangiti. I smiled back. Kakaiba talaga tong dating ni Rence. He's pulling all the negativity in my life. Kaya lagi akong naka depend sa kanya which I hate. I feel so weak. Ayoko nang nanghihina ako, na I'm so helpless but I have to admit the fact that I am. 

"None, its just...I'm so helpless without you and I can't help it Rence" He chuckled. Kainis inaasar na naman ako nang isang to. Hirap nung ginawa ko ah, na umamin. It feels like a confession. 

"I know babe, that's why I'm always here" pininch pa niya ang cheeks ko. Paboritong paborito talaga ni rence ang pisngi ko. 

Napangiti ko.