The Girl on the Sidelines

While I'm Still Waiting

Even when it hurts, I'm still waiting

I look at my phone every time it rings

And I keep on hoping you would call me today,

I just want to hear you call my name.

My heart is breaking but I still hold on,

I have cried a thousand times and I keep on missing you,

Even when I know you're not missing me

I find myself still waiting for you.

Waiting for you outside even when you don't notice me

Each time you walk past me I try to hold you back.

I talk to myself like you're beside me each time I'm alone

And hope that you would be mine in my dreams.

The touch of your hand I once felt in mine

Is a distant memory from one thousand years.

When I met you on the streets

Like a stranger you'd look away.

They say I am a fool for holding on

But I can't get you off my mind.

How will my heart forget

When I think of you day and night?

My tears have dried and gone

I am still waiting but you're still far away.

And everyday that I am missing you, 

You're not even thinking of me.

Each time my phone rings, I hope you're calling

And when you walk past me, I wish you'd look back.

The seasons change and rain has come

I am still waiting but tomorrow I may be gone.

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I know I haven't posted anything so I thought of writing a new poem. I know I said that I would post poems in this book that is about me. But this poem is actually the story of someone else. However, it reminded me of what I felt when I was waiting for one text message even when it was just a simple hello or a glance when I would see him.

I no longer have those feelings for him, hence the last line. Somehow, when a person gets tired of waiting, the feelinsg fade away. So to all the people out there who has someone waiting for them, make them feel special and acknowledge before they disappear like dust in the wind.