A Symphony Of Darkness [WATTYS 2018 LONGLIST] [COMPLETE]

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I weave a shroud of darkness to hide behind

When light tries to find me.

Not because I'm in pain or suffering,

But because the darkness has provided me with

Much more than light ever did.

It doesn't criticise me for my vices,

Doesn't shun me for my flaws.

And it doesn't ask much from me.

Just my soul, my flesh, my blood,

So it can drain me of myself,

So that I reduce to a puppet in decaying flesh;

Become a slave of that, which I once saw as my companion.

It consumes me till I become a part of it.

And when I try to break free,

It doesn't let go of me.

I fear I've started to enjoy it.

I push myself into the violence

I spent so much time perfecting.

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