we all start writing for ourselves
remember
that first time you put word to paper and created a poem
or a short story
or a so-called novel
remember the feeling of satisfaction
of accomplishment
when you finished
it drove you to keep creating
i remember when i wrote my first song
it was an utter piece of shit
but
i loved it
and
it pushed me to write another crappy song
and then another
and after a couple dozen crappy songs
i actually started improving
and wrote a couple decent songs
but then disaster
my band performed a couple of the songs and people liked them
it was the beginning of the end
now i felt i had to write
and write to satisfy others
it eventually forced me to stop writing songs all together
because i was driving myself fucking insane
i was reaching for stars that were covered in clouds
and instead of creating
i was destroying
i stopped writing songs
i never wrote another song for almost 20 years
that was some 15 years ago
when i started writing and recording my own songs
again i made a critical mistake
i posted them on a music site and people started listening
and they actually liked the songs
and i actually reached #1, in my category, in my region
you say
"that is good"
NO
it was terrible
because now i felt i had to write more decent songs
or i would lose the audience
that was listening
and you now what
JE LEEST
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