Stay with me

Kapitulo. Catorce

Sad

Pan Alejandrina Vejar's

All I can do was to stare at Towhtowh with my mouth a bit parted, like why would he ask me that?! I'm in this point of my buhay where I am not thinking of any relationships no! Like, all I want to do right now is be free because that's what I have been lacking of in my life, freedom.

"Pan, seryoso ako..." He said again. I bit my lower lip. Maybe he's just making me biro.

"If I say yes, can I kain your Titi na malaki and so yummy?" I blinked after asking him. That's what I really want to do last night pa. I wanna BJ him – not the buko juice but his Titi, like I wanna see it, and it excites me like there's five OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG in the dulo, but he's madamot, he doesn't want me to dakma his titi – like he's so pakipot pa, ako na nga iyong nag-vo-volunteer.

I am the virgin one but he acts as if he's the virgin. Like, what the fuck right?

Towhtowh stood up and looked at me with so much disappointment in his eyes.

"Iyan lang ba talaga ang habol mo sa akin? Iyong katawan ko, Pan? Alam kong malaki ang katawan ko, banat ako sa gym pero hindi lang ako pangkama, panghabambuhay ako at kung ayaw mo akong sagutin ngayon, then you can never touch this."

My mouth parted when he walked away na talaga for good this time. I don't understand why he's like that to me.

The whole day, Towhtowh's not making me pansin. He's like Peypey Regla na, they're not making me pansin na, tapos they're not making me kausap. Later in the hapon, I couldn't see Towhtowh na, so I asked Jufran where he is.

"Ahh, si Towhtowh ba? Namasad. Malamang nagpapawala ng init ng ulo iyon." He said to me.

"Why is his ulo mainit? Is it becayuse he ignored my BJ proposal?"

Jufran made ubo. His whole face turned red while looking at me. Even Fonso stopped what he was doing to look at me with his eyes widened.

"What? It's normal. He made kain my baby pepe, so I asked him if he wants me to kain his titi!"

"Pan!" Jufran made sigaw to me. "Jusko, paano kapag nagkaroon ako ng anak na babae tapos parang ikaw baka maaga akong mamatay."

"Nagtatampo si Towhtowh sa'yo." Sabi ni Fonso to me.

"Like, why is he naman like that?" I asked him. My eyes widened. "Is it because I didn't answer him right when he told me that he is serious about me? Like I'm no thinking about that naman ngayon, because I am still enjoying my freedom, like we're rich nga kasi but I didn't get to do a lot of things back when I was a kid. So, right now, all I can think about is that I wanna be free. I wanna experience life itself..."

"Pan, si Towhtowh, minsan lang magmahal iyan."

Nawala ang smile ko.

"Oh my! Like there seven Fuck! Fuck! Fuck! Fuck! Fuck! Fuck! Fuck! In just one sentence! Are you making sabi to me that Towhtowh is in love with me?!"

"Could be." Jufran said. "Ang tagal na noong kay Mallory. Maliban kay Mariake, si Mallory lang ang babaeng sinamba ni Towhtowh."

"At sinong Mallory iyon?" Inis na tanong ko.

"Kilala mo iyon. Si Mallory Mende. Former Binibining Pilipinas."

I am thinking. Hard. Not Towhtowh's hard on but about Mallory Mendez. And then, a light bulb appeared in my head.

"Like OMG! Iyong nadapa sa pageant? Iyong hindi naka-answer ng tanong! OMG that bobo girl?!"

"Grabe ka naman, mabait naman iyon." Jufran said. "Iyon nga lang pinagpalit niya si Toto sa mga pangarap niya."