Little blobs of literally nothing, except for part 13

I thought you would understand

Were you happy? Do you have any .... regrets, any... thing you'd change? Were you... content with life. Were you able to be in control? ... were you able to bring a smile to someone's face?.... Or are you the reason behind their tears? Did... you save someone's life? Or perhaps you ended another's. do you hate.... yourself for your actions? Tell me how do you view this world we live in? How do you coupe with the unforeseen tragedy that befalls one another? Do you Try to make it right? Or do you runaway? And leave it all be hind? Are you the one the rights the wrong or the one that wrongs the right?
For I was the one that hated life, I have many regrets, for if I was given the power to change I wouldn't be the same person, I always wanted more out of life , I quickly spiraled out of control, causing the ones I loved to cry, and in the end I ended lives when I could have saved them, I hate my self, I hate myself and what I've done more than I hate this world! Every tragedy the befalls me I blame myself for everything and in the end I only worsen things, for perhaps I am the wrong in your right, for perhaps I was the one thing that stood in your way of success of true happiness, of achieving your dreams, of your love, but I assure you, I never had any intention of it being like this, I never wanted for them to die, I never wanted to turn you into a murder, I never wanted to see her... cry. *sigh* I believe this is the end.... through all this...... may I call you friend.....?