Little blobs of literally nothing, except for part 13

The world

I promised her the world and everything in it. I promised her that I'd right every bad day. I promised her that she was the one for me. I promised she would be happy. I broke them all. I watch her cry every night. I watch as her happiness flees. I watch as she closes herself off. I watch as her world crumbles. And what do I do? What do I say? Nothing. I do nothing. I SAY NOTHING! I just watch from afar as the girl I love slowly dies. I stand here telling my self to move, to speak. I always say that I'll help anyone, and I do. But when it comes to those I love... I'm useless. So now as I watch her hang, motionless and silent, punish me. Please, because I failed her! Because I couldn't do anything! But then what could I do? What should I do? So, as you pay your respects, if you happen to see me, expressionless and un-moving, don't ask why because, trust me, I'm suffering. I always felt I had all the answers but it was you who made me realize how ignorant I was, how you could tell me that you were hurting and that you're going to hurt yourself and all I could say was "okay" all I could do was cry. I couldn't share your pain or lift it, i couldn't even distract you from it. All I did was add. All I did was weigh you down. So, if you happen to see me 25 years later and you ask me if I'm still hung up over her death, my answer is yes, for many reasons. If you ask me, with my wife and kids, wether or not I still love her the answer is yes, I do. And if you find me hanging don't bother wondering why, cause my heart truly died with her, all I am is a wishful husk that finally rested.