Universe and Pancake

69

Do I really deserve all these shits that is happening to me?

"Hyung..." Taehyung called my name.

My eyes are starting to get watery and my throat started to hurt.

I'm fucking crying because of her. I've lost count to how many times I did, but with her, my tears seem to start to fall so fast.

"I can't lose her..." I whispered.

I'm afraid to lose her. I don't know what I will do if I lose her.

Two years ago, I have never imagined myself being in a serious relationship,  much more getting married. In fact, two years ago,  the name Park Chaeyoung doesn't even ring a bell.

Now,  I'm so crazy about her.

The moment I open my eyes, I would grab my phone to send her a message. I would remind her to eat her meals because I'm afraid she's not eating on time. I would call her to wish her goodnight. And I'm pretty sure I've been getting a good sleep because of her.

These past few months, my insides had been giddy. Just the sight of her makes my insides flutter. The sound of her voice makes my knees go weak.

But of course, I wouldn't openly admit all those to her not now,  at least.

"You're crying," Taehyung said,  a matter of fact. "Do you really love her this much?"

I did not respond.

"Isn't obvious?" Jungkook muttered. "I still can't believe you're married."

I wipe the tear on my cheeks as I continue to drown myself in alcohol.

I don't normally drink but I needed it this time to relieve my frustration.

Tomorrow, I will make sure to beg for her forgiveness. If I have to bring Hobi hyung with me,  I would, if that's what it takes to talk to me again. 

"I really-really love her." I stuttered. I pulled Taehyung by the arm. "Yah,  Kim Taehyung,  where is my wife!" I kept tugging him by the arm as he tries to pry my hand away.

My head is aching and I'm getting really dizzy.

"Yah,  Jungkook, the place is turning. Make it stop!" I chuckled.

"Hyung, I think this should be enough. Jin hyung will kill us." Jungkook stood up and helped me get up.

I allowed him because my vision feels like turning

"Kookie-yah! Why do you have a hickey on your neck?" I giggled. I felt his body stiffen.

"Ooohhhh,  Kookie is getting some huh?!"

Me and Taehyung high-fived.

I tried to keep my eyes open but before I knew it, my mind wandered off to darkness.

"Jimin...." I opened my eyes as saw Chaeng smiling at me.

My hand automatically reached for her face.

I looked around and noticed that I am still in the same place were Jungkook, Tae and I drank.

I quickly sat and pulled her for a hug.

"Chae,  I'm sorry. I swear,  I didn't mean to lie to you." I cupped her face as I explain everything to her.

I feel like floating.

My brows furrowed when Chaeng didn't respond.

Something's wrong.

Instead,  she removed my hands on her face and shook her head.

My heart shattered into pieces.

And then the place got dark and her body suddenly flew backward,  away from me.

"Wait,  what's happening?!" I panic.

Darkness is starting to take her away from me. My chest begins to tighten.

I cannot move.

No.

My body lunged forward as I heard a metal clattering.

I covered my face like a streak of light flashes before me.

A sigh escaped my lips as I realized that I was on my bed.

It was just a dream...

"Chimchim..." I looked up as I heard Jin hyung's shocked voice.

Chaeng's crying face greeted before me, Jin hyung standing beside her, a spoon on his hand. I looked down and noticed a baking pan on the floor.

My feeling had gotten heavy.

"Chaeyoung..." I whispered. "Why are you crying?"

Before she can even respond, I heard someone groan beside me.

My eyes immediately widen.

A familiar figure soon rose beside me, her hair disheveled,  and her body covered with a loose shirt,  my shirt.

What's even more shocking is that the person who just woke up beside me is none other than Son Chaeyoung of Twice.

I automatically snapped my head towards my wife's direction only to be greeted by her devastated state.

Her eyes red, tears streaming down her eyes, disappointment,  betrayal... Her eyes mirrored every possible emotion I can mutter.

"I-ahhm, no" I whispered, not even sure what to say.

To add up to the mess,  once Son Chaeyoung beside me realizes what's happening,  her piercing scream covered the silence in the room.

Once I looked back to the direction where my wife is,  she's already gone.

Fuck. What have I done?

"Fuck" I messed my hair in frustration.

What have I gotten myself into?  And more importantly,  why is this girl on my bed and in my shirt?