Manhattan, New York NYC 2010, July 22 Thursday 11 : 39 am
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Beyoncé Knowles
It's been a tough couple of months. After everything that happened I just didn't feel like myself anymore. I couldn't forgive myself for what I did.
I asked Rih about my dad a couple of times and she wouldn't answer me. I just decided to let it go. Sex was the one thing I could use to escape feeling so shallow. That and my lil family
I always kept Amir close to me, fearing the possibility of her getting hurt. I didn't want what happened to me to happen to her. Although I know Rih would never allow that.
And she has been super amazing too. She didn't force me to get over my feelings or try to speed up my healing process. She was patient enough for the both of us.
"Hey, wanna come with me to the trap? It's pretty boring but at least you won't be alone" Rih said rubbing my arms gently
"I don't want Amir in that place, I told you that before" I said to her.
"Drake asked to keep her for today actually, if that's okay with you. He's going to his girlfriend's niece's party and wanted to bring her" she said. I blushed
Rih treated me like her mother now, she never made decisions about Amir without consulting with me first
"That's okay, will Kae be at the Trap too?" I asked. It was boring when she wasn't there.
I heard that sexual activity slowed down drastically at the trap especially after Bird got a girl. Apparently I'm dating the biggest fuck nigga in that joint
"Imma ask Breezy to ask her to come" she said. My eyes trailed down to her lips, they looked so attractive.
"I'll call her it's cool" I said still staring at them. I saw a smirk on them. My eyes went back to hers
"All you gotta do is ask baby girl" she bit her bottom lip leaning in closer to me. I waited in anticipation until I felt her lips on mine.
I moaned in her mouth as our tongues wrestled each other, she pulled me closer to her by the neck like it was even possible.
I sucked on her tongue hungrily feeling passion burning inside of me that I haven't felt in months
I pulled back from the kiss for a sec, though I was still yearning for more. She had her hazel eyes imprinted on me
"I missed you so much" I whispered between us. I gulped in lust looking at her
"I've been here all this time baby, I've never left" she responded. That was true, she never left me but I felt too shallow to feel a connection to her until now
"I know and that's not what I meant. I know you felt the distance between us... that was all on me. I was going through some stuff and I'm sorry" I explained to her. She shook her head in return before placing a soft kiss on my lips
