Save you tonight. [One Direction Fan Fiction]

Chapter 12

Sarah's Pov

After the air flight, We found our way to an apartment. We walked in and looked around to find 2 beds. Of coarse me and Harry in one, Niall and Sam in the other. Harry checked the time the funeral started. in 5 hours, I decided to show everyone around Houston. Not that much to do here so we mostly went to a cafe for 2 hours than to a dog park for an hour, To the kids museum where Niall and Harry did everything they could. We walked into the kids museum to have 20 little girls run up to the boys, that took 20 minutes, than to the kid rides and all the little things. Me and sam sat and watched. These boys. We decided to head back to the hotel to get ready. We all dressed in black, I wore black skinny jeans and one of harry's black jack Wills hoodies. "Sarah, dress nicely" He walked in on my laying down with puffy eyes from crying so much. "No, They expect me to dress up for my best friend's death! they can suck it." I spat at him and went back to laying down. I heard a knock at the door and walked over. Austin! "Sarah, i'm here to pick y'all up." I swallowed and screamed for them to come out. Sam came running out and stopped when she saw austin. "Austin." She stood their standing looking down at her TOMS. "Go get your lover boys, i'm waiting!" He yelled loud enough to were the boys come huddling out of the bathroom. Niall swallowed and went to shake Austin's hand, but to his surprise Austin rejected. He took it back and walked to sam who was still frozen. "Austin, be nice! god damnit." i yell at him, he just rolled his eyes and walked into the hallway. Sam threw me my purse and harry took my hand and squuezed it. We got into his car and from there to the church was silence. Once we got there I sat in the car starring at the church. I didn't want to face anyone, talk to anyone, look at anyone. Just sit here in silence and hate myself for not being there for him when he needed me at most. Harry came to me and helped me out of the car. I gulped and took a step in to only find a casket with a picture of him above it. I could tear hot tears buring my cheek. "And the tears, run down like razor blades" the song started playing. I walked in and felt a tap on my shoulder I saw the crew stand behind me with red puffy eyes. We all gave eachother a hug. Sarah Wright and Alex were the last to pull away from the hug. They handed me a box of tissues making me crack a smile but to have it fade away when I look up at the slideshow. Pictures of me, him and the crew. I could feel my body shake. Harry led me to a pue and I say there starring at the pictures blurrying into my mind. A video showed up :

We were at an Austin show in L.A:

-Austin's on stage: we were back stage: Alex videoing "Hey, Guys! this crowds amazing! look Robert and Sarah getting cozzzaaah! -Shows camera on me and Robert cuddling up asleep on a couch- They're perfect" he smiles and turns off video. Now I was full on bawling. Harry came and pulled me close to him, He kisses my head. I look up to Austin who seems to be serching for someone. He eye's Sam crying into Niall's shoulder, His cheek burn and he clentches  his fist. I elbow harry who looks over and makes his way to sam and niall. Niall, Harry, And Sam walk out of the church, I follow with Austin behind me. Once we get outside austin blows up "Sam, How the hell do you go from me to irish lad over there!" She rolls her eyes and pulls niall closer to her. "Look, let's get this funeral over with so we can go home!" I spat at him "Sarah, This IS your home. You belong here, not with these dipshits!" He screams at me. I start to walk over to have me pulled back. "I HATE IT HERE! I HATE YOU! THIS IS YOUR FAULT! HE'S DEAD AND YOU WANT TO MAKE THIS ABOUT YOU! YOU STUBURN BITCH! I SWEAR AUSTIN, SOMETIMES YOU CAN BE SUCH A BITCH! MY BEST FRIEND IS DEAD IN A CASKET AND YOU WANT TO MAKE THIS YOUR PROBLEM THAT YOU HURT SAM! GO FUCK YOUR SELF!" i ranted and ran inside to have everyone crowded around the door listing. I roll my eyes and walk into the room AND I walk to the casket to take a peek. I look up at a picture of me and him burning on the screen. I mouth "I'm sorry" and turn around to have everyone sitting down. I eye around to have Sam standing behind the stand motioning me to come over. I gulp, I have to make a speech!? I walk over and instantly feel dizzy. I move my mouth closer to the microphone. "Hi, I'm sarah, if any of you don't know me, I was Robert's ex. I loved him so much. I was apart of the amazing crew." my lip curled a bit "I was with Robert for a couple of years and well, best years of my life. I've known the crew well FOREVER, Not only was robert my love, but my best friend. I'll never forget meeting him with him chucking a basketball at my head to get my attention." I smile "When I moved I swear I have never been so devistated in my life! I did it for my sister. Robert's death of coarse I blame on me, I wasn't here for him when he needed me. I was off with a british boy band being chased by fans and paparazzi. I miss Robert very much, but I know at this moment he's up there rapping his heart out playing basketball. He loved the crew and would NEVER let them down. I just hope he knows how much we love him" I wipe tears off and take a step over to let sam go but she just shakes her head and walks off.

-After the Funeral everyone was heading to a resturant but me, No I had bought a plane ticket. I want out of this god forbiden hell.