The more I laugh, the better you feel.
The more I smile, the better you feel.
I laugh it off.
Joke about it to keep the tears at bay.
Have panic attacks every time I go to the bathroom so you don't see.
I eat only when you're around.
So you don't question why I'm growing thinner.
I run harder. Longer. Every day.
"Are you okay?"
No.
"Yeah I'm fine."
I ran out of room on my arm.
Now my hips.
And thighs.
Are covered with designs.
I draw with the blade.
My skin the canvas.
Creating beautiful pictures I wish to show.
But I know.
To laugh it off.
To smile when you're around.
Do you even care that I spend my Sunday mornings at some stupid session?
I wasn't joking when I said I got worse.
And you want to know what you did?
You laughed.
You fucking laughed like it was another joke.
Tell me.
Would you laugh if I told you that you were the reason?
Would you laugh if I told you that I now take pills just to keep me living?
Would you laugh if I told just how easy it has become to go numb to the pain?
Would you laugh if I told that I want to end it all right now?
Would you?
My sleeves never seem to stay down.
My legs always hurt with the fabric rubbing my torn skin.
I don't care anymore.
I stopped counting the pills.
I stopped looking both ways.
I stopped caring how deep I went.
But it's fine.
I'm just fine.
Maybe?
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