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"Aren't you suppose to find the right suit for my boyfriend here???" after they heard my tone, like a mouse run for their dear life from the cat, they ran away to do their suppose job.

I never been so embarrassed like just now and it made me let out a big sigh as I took a seat at the mini sofa they had provided just now. I can't even bring myself to look at Jaehyun at that moment. Oh gosh, seriously?

Jaehyun took the armchair as his seat and from my peripheral view, I can see that he was sort of like...thinking? He totally caught me on guard when his face suddenly up infront of mine. You don't know how that little move always made me surprise and my heart will beat too fast for my own liking. It was beating in unusually pace to say.

When was the last time I ever felt this way...?

Well, the answer to it were...whenever my parents and Baekhyun threw a birthday surprise for me. Actually, getting myself into the memory lane wasn't a good thing especially when I was in the middle of something. Where was I?

"Byul, are you still there? Byun Byul???"

I just looked at him, staring at his beautiful eyes that drowned me into the abyss I never felt. That abyss of teenage girls always feel whenever they fell for the boy that captured their hearts. That first love symptom.

"I-"

"Sir, we got you a very good suit- Oh! Did I interuppt something?"

Just like that, I turned my head to my side and as for Jaehyun, he abruptly stand up, acting like there was nothing happen just now.

Jaehyun followed the tailor afterwards, leaving me alone at the waiting room, which I was quite thankful. For a moment, I need a few minutes of alone time to compose myself. Yes, I put my hand on my chest, where the heart is, and slowly, I exhaled and inhaled as I internally wishing that my heart will beat in normal pace again. But, it was really difficult...

Am I really having the first love symptom...?

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Getting a fine and suitable suit for Jaehyun wasn't hard like I thought it will be. It was actually easier because of one specific reason. His too attractive face. Almost wasn't the right word but, every is the one. Every suit looked good on him, as if every suit were made for him. Like a prince.

We were walking side by side in a mere silent. Neither of us talk. We were just walked and naturally embraced the silent with comfort. Maybe, both of us needeed it after the awkward moment happened in the boutique a couple of hours ago.

A few minutes later, Jaehyun bravely broke the thin ice between us.

"Are you nervous?"

That literally made me stopped. How did he know that-

"N-nervous? Nervous of what?" I avoided to have any eye contact with him and forced my eyes to focus on the flower bushes beside me instead.

"You know..."

Since Jaehyun had a big black shopping bag with a B&W across the bag in his right hand, he inserted the other unoccupied hand into his black pant's pocket.

I had made a mistake when I took a glance at Jaehyun. He looked exactly like the guy that every girl would fall for over the heels. I blinked away the thought and tried to focus on the road as the heart beat too fast for my liking, again. I thought, maybe it because I'm just nervous?

He suddenly stopped and faced his body to my side and he did it again, looking into my eyes deeply and I can't believe that I'm actually holding my breath. When was the last time I hold my breath because of...a guy?

I was hoping that my cheeks weren't shaded in red colour. Or it did already?

"Your cheeks...they're red."

Okay, my cheeks just betrayed me. What else could happen next? A ki-

He enclosed the gap between us, making my heart pounding against my ribcage in abnormal pace as if I just finished ten laps of running. But I didn't.

Jaehyun, he caused everything happen to me. Everything I never...experience nor feel.

It was impossible because I just knew him for a week. But...people tend to talk about it. That symptom. That symptom...

I looked into his eyes back and it made me confuse.

"Jae," was it really...

"Yes, Byul?"

......love?

His nose barely touched mine when suddenly, I felt something warm encircled my neck.

A scarf. A white wooly scarf.

"Why..."

I was baffled by it and he just took my breath when he flashed me his famous smile along his deep dimple. That dimple...

"This scarf will keep you warm."

He tugged the scarf around me, making sure the scarf was warm enough for me because of the tinted red cheeks I got. What he didn't know was, my cheeks were in red because of him. Not because of the cold weather.

So, that was why people tend to sayㅡ female is sharp while male is blunt.

Or was it the other one?

From every words and facts I had heard, I just realised something by myself.

Even it was kind of impossible and crazy, I think I already found it.

Firstly, the reason why am I hurting alone was...

...I had found myself falling for him which it shouldn't be like that.

Secondly, the reason why he can't know was...

...falling for him will hurt me in the end. And if he did feel the same as me, that feeling of mine will hurt both of us.

Cause I knew it already, once we break the curse, we won't seeing each other again. Like every story I had read and watched. What if it was all true?

my heart ache while writing this, gosh why