Loving You is Hard, Especially When I Hate You.

Confessions

“sorry! But it was the only way I could get your attention! I said your name 5 times!” I sighed rolling my eyes and putting my IPod in my backpack.

“well, what is It then?” I said looking up into his big brown eyes. He stopped laughing and cleared his throat.

“i just want to talk please?” he said. I sighed again crossing my arms. I wasn't in the mood. My day wasn't turning out as I wanted. And talking to him wasn't making me anymore happier.

“fine.” I said biting my lip. I wasn't sure what he wanted to talk about but I’m sure it was nothing good.

“okay I just want to say... I'm sorry. I was being a jerk. And I don't know... it's just something about Liam that ticks me off. Maybe it's just me being jealous.” he said looking down.

He really did know how to make someone feel sorry for him. But honestly I wasn't buying it. Why would he be jealous of Liam. Sure he had money and he was good looking.. ish. Sure he had girls begging him to date them... okay I see how he could be jealous. But wouldn't that mean that he was jealous of Zayn too? And Niall, Harry, and Louis? Why would he only act like that to Liam if they all had that life style?

“sure, look Darren-”

“can you forgive me? Please?” I sighed. He wasn't going to let me go that easily. But I really needed to go now. I had only 5 minutes before rehearsals started and I hadn't even stretched yet.

“o-okay, I need-” he grabbed my arm turning me around so I was facing him. Our chest were touching and his face was inches from mine. My breath caught in my throat.

“Re Re I want you to know that... I never got over you. I still love you and that's one of the main reasons I came down. I want you back. And I don't care how long it takes, I love you Serena.” he said I quickly pulled away walking backwards very carefully.

“um... yea... uh... look.... I need.... to... go. Yea... uh .. bye.” I stutter trying keep calm. I quickly run away towards my studio room and try to forget everything he just said. Why did he have to do this? Why did he have to so to speak 'spill his guts' to me right now? God and I thought my life was just getting boring.

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After Dance I quickly walked out of the room and outside where I usually waited for Liam. I pulled up my hood to keep the light rain from frizzing up my already gross sweaty hair. Just then I heard someone call my name I looked over to see Darren walking over here. I bit my lip looking around for an escape goat. But nothing. Suzan was already driving away and Liam was no where to be seen. I hated when he did this. He always took his sweet time picking me up. We would be on time in the morning but in the afternoon it was like he could care less. I seriously couldn't wait till I could drive myself.

“yea?” I asked a bit annoyed. He slowed down laughing as he neared me. He pushed a loose strand of hair into my hood and chuckled.

“looks like someone needs a shower.” he said. I gave him my serious face. I always used it when he got off topic and right now seemed like a very good time to use it.

“okay okay the reason I'm here is because I was wondering if you wanted a ride. You know maybe go-''

“hey! I thought I told you to stay away from her!” I heard from my right. We both snapped our heads to the car that lay in front of us. Liam's car. I swallowed hard looking at him. He had pure anger written all over his face. He got out slamming the door and stalking over to where we were. His eyes looking directly at Darren. When he got near us he pushed me gently back and got very close to Darren.

“i told you to stay away from her. Why can't you just leave her alone?” he spat. Darren looked just as mad but he didn't say anything. So Liam kept going. “God your such a perv stay away from her, and from us.” he said pushing his shoulders. This is when I decided to take the reins. I got in between them pushing Liam away from Darren.

“Liam, you are not the boss of me and Darren, just go. “ I order, pulling on Liam's arm.

He was still standing defensively staring down Darren. I nudged his arm once more causing him to snap out of his little trance. Darren nodded at me before jogging away. I sighed walking over to the car. Why did it always have to be like this whenever they were around each other? First Darren was the jerk, now Liam? What did Liam have to be jealous of Darren about? Why was Darren only jealous of Liam? My head was swamped with questions I couldn't find answers to. All I wanted was answers but every time I wanted to ask it was always someone interrupting me. I got into the car quickly and silently, turning on the radio.

“sorry.” Liam said finally before starting the car. “i just-''

“just what Liam? Just pushed a guy for talking to me? God! It's so confusing with you! First you act like you hate me then you act like this when I’m around Darren? Make up your damn mind Liam!” I yelled, it was like the anger in me was finally bursting out. Not just because of what just went down. But the frustration from it all. From the boring week I’ve had. From the lack of being spontaneous. From not being able to understand what was going on between Liam and Darren. Everything was driving me mad and it was just now coming out. I needed to vent or else I think I might do something more drastic.

“Why can't you two just get along? Why do you act so protective towards me when he is around but yet when we are alone your a dick? It's driving me crazy trying to figure out what is going on in that brain of yours! Just tell me what it is! Please I'm dying over here!” I say, I didn't mean to say that. But I just came out. Suddenly Liam was cupping my face pulling me to look at him. We were both twisted around in our seats uncomfortably looking into each others eyes. His thumbs rubbing circles into my cheeks.

“I- I'm sorry.” he said pulling me closer till his lips were lightly against mine. I could feel his trembling as he began to speak again. “I don't know what's going on with me.”

i was so confused i that moment. my mind was going fuzzy just by the close contact i was having with him. something that i think deep down I wanted so badly. something that I realized I missed after only a week or so of not having. Even if the first kiss we shared meant nothing to him I still liked it. I still think about it. how his lips felt against mine. How when he added just a smidge more pressure my heart skipped and my body melted. How when he first started kissing me his arms that were wrapped around me squeezed me closer to him, meshing out bodies together. Right now in this moment it felt so right. But I didn't want this feeling. This amazing, wonderful feeling. Not just yet. Before I could get this feeling again I needed to know what he meant. Why was he sorry. what was going on with him.  I just needed to know.

But before I could say anything he  brought his lips to mine.

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this is really short :/ sooowwwiiie but it was kind of meant to be a cliffhanger :/ i hate cliffhangers but they draw you in!

and now for the sad part :/ this is the last daily upload i think... because i go to school tomorrow and well yea.. :/ trust me i would much rather update than go to school but i will TRY to upload as much as possible! i swear!

I LOOOVVVVVEEEE YYYYOOUUUUU <3 i already have our wedding planned out and everything... jk jokes i'm really in the middle of planning my wedding with my babes it's 5 of them.. they are pretty hot too you should look them up their names are Carlito Pepito Martito miquelito and dick very sexy lads if i say so myself ;)

OKAY PEACE OUT MY HOMMIES ~Me! <333 xxx