Fragile Heart

A Reason to LET GO

The visit from "La Fleur de Kapitan" was something that draw me close to the two, specially now I know the connection between the two. Our relationship grew stronger and went on even until to the point that his parents know about us. It was hard for me to introduce him to my parents, but I know my mother knows about it she just doesnt talk about it. We have been planning and taking trips together, he has been to most of my dance competitions or dance classes. Its like I breathe the air that he is breathing, think almost alike and there is no strand in me that he doesnt know about and same goes for me. Our relationship was a blooming 5 years and still counting.

One summer I planned our anniversary and the location was where we first met. The same resort, we invited a few of our friends including Angel who broke up with Stephen years ago but because she was a fojushi became our friend and also with Stephen. Initially I told Carlos about the idea but not the surprise I am planning. He said he'd bring in new friends he met and I was ok with it. Everything was going as planned, of course this is our 6th years of being together so I must be the one to do all the planning, because all of the anniversaries we celebrated was initiated by him. This is also my first time planning for something ofcourse with Louise and Angel's help who became bestfriends, fojushi think alike. They are also excited about the anniversary,  I guess they are more excited than I am. The three of us arrive at the resort earlier and using Louise's car along with Angel. I think she drove very fast taking a two hour ride in just an hour and 15 minutes. But when we reached the area Stephen was already there. He even told us we were very late and whats taking us too long. He told Louise and Angel "its also our anniversary you know, this is the day we got to be very close to each other." And the two went berserk and squealing,  I forgot they ship me with Stephen for fun, "yeah too close, that we hate each other that much (not really)." I responded. The whole day we were busy setting everything up, the room we are suppose to sleep in was filled with scented candles and the bed sheets was change to color red and they put a bucket for a wine later. Angel and Louise then took charge of the decoration I just ask if I could sleep in their room since I couldnt in our room because of the decor to set a romantic mood. Stephen too helped them, felt bad for him, he is going to deal with the two who keeps shipping us. I took my bag and asked for the room service to have my clothes ironed and set, I will be wearing an all white boho clothes later, and just told him he could just enter the room(hey, they wont be able to do anything foolish remember the owner is my relative) and place it where I could see it for later. Honestly im very excited for later, Angel and Louise room is quite big with two beds same sizes. I took off my shirt and chose to just lie topless. I qued in John Barry's Somewhere in Time music, its very relaxing that slowly I fell asleep.

I woke up to the feeling of being watched, and yes I am being watched. Stephen was sitting in the chair in front of the bed im sleeping. When I got up he said, "its time to get ready," I yelled at him and told him "why didnt you wake me up, how long have you been watching me sleep?" He told me he was there for almost an hour and a half, saying he was enjoying the songs I was playing he even recognized some and elaborated them, your phone played, "songs from a secret garden, the schindlers list ost, kiss the rain, avatar osts, hymn of the sea, must I continue to mention them?" He asked. I threw a pillow at him and called him a jerk for not waking me up.
Conversation flow:
Stephen: are you not gonna get ready are you still gonna lie in bed
Me: curse you! Why didnt you
S: you look so peaceful while sleeping who am I to disturb you
M: duh, you're his brother and youve been a jerk since we become close
S: me a jerk? Since when (acting coy and innocent)
I stood up and grabbed a towel and was rummaging the cabinet where could have the room boy placed my clothes
S: I already placed your clothes in the bathroom door. Only your underwear is missing, not unless you dont want to wear one, hmmmm kinky!
M: (blushing) shut up! Pervert!
S: you called me a jerk, now a pervert which one? Do you want me to be a jerk or a pervert, im good in being a pervert.
He then stood up and grinned at me its as if he's planning something. I instantly ran into the bathroom and made sure to lock it. And then he tried to open the door.
S: babe, are you playing hard to get?
M: (why is my knees getting weak from being called babe by him) pervert, stop that.
S: (still trying to open the door) I will only stop if you let me in.
M: jerk, stop pissing me off (then I turned on the shower and undressed)
S: up to you babe (youll regret it, not letting me in)
Oh my gosh, why does my knees go weak everytime when im with him. I have a boyfriend and we are celebrating our anniversary today. Stephen knows how to piss me off, im sure he is just playing. He is straight remember so dont forget about it, you can imagine all you want but dont forget about reality. I hate reality, its such a bitch. I finished taking a shower and changed to the clothes Im gonna wear for tonight. Then I made sure I had my hair set, nothing should go out of place, I should look presentable to my lover. I sprayed in a little perfume in my wrist and dabbed it under my ears. I went out of the bathroom and I was shocked to see Stephen standing there. He smiled at me and said, "I guess I influenced someone with my all white ensemble," I told him its befitting for the event and the location thats why I chose it and called him concieted stranger. He laughed hard and said, "you've called me different stuffs today, arent you being obvious," then puckered his lips and he was acting to kiss me. We were running around the room abd he was calling me "come on babe, give me a big kiss." Then I slipped almost hitting my head to the chair, Stephen instantly caught  me grabbed my hand and held me very close to him then in a soft voice he said "im sorry, you should be careful next time." I was looking at him in the eye, and I could feel the sincerity in  what he was saying. My heart started pounding that I feel like as if I froze and couldnt move. Being this close to him and and looking at his eyes is very ecstatic, I could smell his musky scent, his perfume fills my nostrils and his arms put in a very secure state but also it was gentle. We were in that state when suddenly the door opened and Carlos, Angel and Louise was looking at us. I then pushed Stephen away(ungrateful bitch,  wrong timing), then explained to them, I slipped then Stephen caught. Carlos went in the room and asked if I was ok or hurt. I could see Angel and Louise containing their fojushi feelings. I told Carlos that I was alright, and went and asked him how was his trip to act casual and avoid further questions from earliers situation. He was telling me, but my head was thinking about what happened earlier. He said his new found friends are here to celebrate and asked if im ready to meet them we can go to the restaurant. I then agreed to meet his friends, we were steps away from the room when the two suddenly screamed as if something terrible happened. Carlos was about to run to their direction, when I stopped and told him. Dont mind them, nothing really happened its just their fojushi lifestyles. In a worried face he just agreed and walked along with me. Along the way he was mentioning names new to me which I picked upped and memorized so that ill gaze guess later. He was pinching me, occasionally tickling me while walking, we were walking on a very slow paced, I bet the turtle can out walk us. He then stopped walking, we were at the beach now just a few meters walk from the restaurant. He held my face and greeted me a happy anniversary in a very soft and sweet voice and then kissed me. Everything that happened earlier all vanished in my mind, the water below splashing our feet, the breeze sings its soft harmony its as if it was meant for us, and the moon was shining brightly. It was a picturesque moment, I closed my eyes to enjoy his passionate kiss. We stayed like that for 15 minutes I think. And when he broke the kiss he told me, he love me so much, I was really touched that tears flow down my eyes, I was smiling and I know he understood that it meant i love him too. Sometimes when someone tells you "I Love You" you dont have to answer to it because its not a question, but you just have to feel it. He then quickly hugged me, I thought it was part of the moment, but then suddenly, he grabbed my ass and said, so its been 6 years, are you surrendering the well guarded fort(referring to my ass). I responded, "I had all the moods set" ( but promise im still not ready for it, im scared, but im gonna try doing it now!) His smile was all over his face and then he placed his arms around me and told me, "lets meet our guest, I bet they are hungry" we walked to the restaurant and when we arrive it was dark as hell! He told me "maybe they got bored and went for a walk" I thought - well thats stupid this place doesnt turn its lights off, I asked him that we enter restaurant and go directly to the front desk to have the lights on. And when we entered, the lights turned on and there was a loud cheer of "happy anniversaries" and the two fojushi was holding a devil moist chocolate cake that says congratulations. I was surprised but at the back of my mind the idea was there. What really surprised me is how the two fojushi arrived first. Then when I looked at Carlos he told me "were you able to take a picture of our kiss?" I was like, jaw drop he still gets to surprise me and the two fojushi showed a picture of us. As expected it looks lovely. I gave him a soft punch and he told me that atleast hed get to surprise me instead and he had the idea that I was gonna surpise him. Hmpft, smart ass, always thinking ahead. And then we welcomed and thanked the two for doing all the preparations which Stephen suddenly butted in, I helped too you know. Then I thanked him calling him stranger and also elaborating that we got close like cats and dogs, and everyone laughed except Carlos, maybe he doesnt want someone laughing at his half brother, and also thanked Carlos' newfound friends they add to the cheerfulness of the party. Then the waiter passed on glasses of wines and Carlos proposed for a toast. It was solemn and romantic,  and their parents arrived just when we are about to eat.