Learning to Accept *Slow updates*

Chapter 2

I was walking towards the stairs when tears blurred my vision. How could he do that us? Leaving us was awful. Having nothing to do with us was bad enough. Keeping a secret like this from us? That he’s gay? Theres nothing more he could do to make me hate him more than I do now.

When I was little my dad was amazing. He used to do stuff with us, he used to care, but at night, when I was asleep he would abuse my mom. I never knew until a few months before he left.

I bumped into something hard, pulling me away from my depressing thoughts. When I look up I can barely make out Ethans face through my tears. Before I realize what I am doing, I lean into his chest, hugging him tightly. We wraps his arms around me without hesitating. 

After my tears dried I realize whose arms I was in. I can’t believe I was so upset to just let anyone hold me, comfort me. I quickly let go of him and run toward my room, he follows behind me yelling my name. I lock my door after I get it shut. He can’t see me this way, not when I like him. Yeah, I admit it, I like him, but he will never find out.

“Kyla, please let me in.” I can here the sadness in his voice when he knocks on my door. It takes everything I have in me not to go open the door and hug him.

“Why? I just want to be alone.”

“Kyla, I think thats a lie. You don’t want to be alone, you want someone to comfort you, but you’re to proud to ask for it. I just want to comfort you. Please Kyla, I won’t do anything but hold you. I won’t ask whats wrong, I’ll just let you cry. You shouldn’t have to do that alone, let me help, I want to.”

I walk to the door and think about letting him. He says he won’t do anything but comfort me. I lock the door before walking across my room and laying in hammock I have hanging in the corner. I hear his steps coming towards me.

“Scoot over.” He whispers while hold up the blanket. I scoot over and he climbs in, wrapping his arms around me. I snuggle into the comfort they offer me.

After laying there for a couple minutes with him playing with my hair I start to think about my dad again. Another tear escapes my eyes but Ethan quickly wipes it away with his thumb. I look up at him and instantly feel butterflies. I smile sadly at him, and he smile back.

“M-my dads g-g-gay.” I tell him before I start sobbing into his shirt.

“It’s going to be fine.” He rubs my back trying to help me feel better.

“No, no it isn’t. He’s gay! He could even tell me or Jace. My mom had to tell us! First he leaves us when I’m 7, then he has nothing to do with us. Now this? It’s too much. I hate him. I hate how he changed after he left. I hate that he doesn’t love us anymore. I hate that he lies to us. I hate how I still love him because hes my dad.” I sob hard. “I’m sorry I didn’t mean to tell you all that.”

“Its okay Kyla. I don’t mind. I’m here for you no matter what. All I want to do is be your friend, even if you say no. You need another friend. Someone who can see through mask, see that your pain and can’t of anything about it. Let me be that someone. Please Kyla, thats all I’m asking.” I can see the truthfulness in his eyes. I never thought he could be so caring.

“Okay, I’ll give you a chance.” I smile up at him and he wipes my tears away.

An hour later I’m done crying and still laying in his arms. I feel my content then I ever have in my life. I snuggle in closer and look up at him. He meets my eyes and smiles at me. His fingers trail down my face before tucking a piece of hair behind my ear. Is he going to kiss me? No ones ever kissed me before, what am I supposed to do?

He leans down and his eyes flicker to my lips. I feel heat creeping up my face but look at his lips and lean forwards anyway. I look back up to his eyes and notice they are shining in happiness. Before I know what I’m doing I lean in the rest of the way. 

My eyes close when our lips touch. My heart lurched in my chest and I smile into the kiss. I feel him smile back, I don’t think I have ever been so happy before. My hands work their way into his hair and his wrap around my waist hugging me closer.

His tongue runs over my bottom lip, asking for permission. I gladly open and allow him to enter. I climb on top of him as he deepens the kiss. 

After kissing for a few minutes longer I pull away breathlessly. I open my eyes to see him smiling at me. I can’t help but smile back.

“Wow.” Is all he says before I lean back in for more.

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