My Own Way

Chapter 26 - Part 2

"What are you saying?" Blake asked.

I knew this was the perfect time to say those three words...

"I don't want to be anywhere else and I don't want to be with someone else." I answered.

"What are you saying?" He asked again.  Slowly his eyes changed and he was smirking at me.  He knew exactly what I was saying.  He wasn't nervous anymore and his confidence was back.  I rolled my eyes, he was going to make me say it and I could feel my face going bright red.

I put my hands over my face to cover the redness and I heard him chuckle.  

"I'll repeat it for you...  What are you saying?" He said.  I took my hands away from my face and he had a big smile across his face.

"You already know." I whispered.

"No I don't." He whispered back.  "I can never guess with you.  You're a mystery most of the time and almost impossible to read." He finished.

I took a deep breath and thought, 'let the cards fall where they may'.

"I love you." I said, loud enough for him to hear me and not ask me to repeat it.

His eyes searched mine, I guess he was looking for confirmation.  "Almost impossible to read..." He repeated and his smile was bigger than before.  "Since I first met you, I've been hoping that one day I would hear you say those words to me." 

"And? What do you think?" I asked nervously.

"What do I think?  ...it's about damn time." He said chuckling. He wrapped his arms around me, holding me close.  "I've loved you from the first second I saw walk-in the garage at work.  You can confuse me like no one else can, frustrate me, piss me off and you can irritate me but at the end of the day, I'm always glad you're lying right beside me." He whispered.

It was great to hear those words coming from him, I wasn't sure if he was going to say them but now that he had, I had a big smile of my own.

He pulled away and took my hand in his.  With a smirk on his face he started to walk towards the bedroom pulling me forward to follow him.

"No." I said loudly, making sure my feet stayed firmly on the ground.

He turned and looked at me, it hurt me to see confusion and hurt in his eyes.

I walked to him while still holding his hand and I was glad he didn't move at all.

"There is nothing in the world that I'd rather do than to be in that bed with you...  I do love you..."

"So why aren't we in that bed already?" He asked with a small smile.

I took a deep breath, "Because I love you, but you can't fully love me if you don't know my past.  There are a lot of things that I obviously haven't told you and now I think it's time that you know.  I can't be in that bed with you and then tell you because...if you rejects me, you'd regret sleeping with me and that...that would kill me." I said, trying my best to keep my emotions in check.

"I remember what you told me...about you and your mom and meeting your dad for the first time a few years later...  Is that what you're talking about?" He asked.

I nodded my head.

"Listen gorgeous, you were just a kid.  I'm sure it's not that bad." He said.

I didn't know how to answer or react to that except I knew he wasn't referring to the whole situation.  A part of me was saying he was right and the other part was screaming 'Not bad?!  Since when is killing someone not bad!'.

I turned away from him, walked to the couch and sat down.  "Please?" I asked Blake, hoping he would sit down with me so I could get this over and done with.

He nodded his head, walked over and sat down on the opposite end of the couch.  He knew me well and he knew I needed my space, another reason why I loved him.  He didn't know my past, didn't know the whole me but he definitely could keep up with my frame of mind, even if sometimes he got the wrong message.

I wasn't looking forward to the next part.  Telling him the truth was a tiny bit scarier than saying I love you for some odd reason, I thought it would be the other way around.

I took a deep breath and thought, 'Ready or not, here we go...'

End of Part 2

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