DISTANCE (Josh Dun x Reader) (SEQUEL) ✧ idkbrooklyn

prologue

I was looking for something, anything to distract myself from this unbearable distance between Josh and I. Even if we're miles apart, I still feel like he's attached to me. His laugh was contagious and I can't stop replaying it over and over again until the sound of him is all that I hear and all that I know. The dvd player in my mind is always on rewind to the day we met and our memories from there. Anytime my eyes were closed I saw nothing but felt everything. How is it possible to feel absolutely numb on the outside yet the inside of your mind is a thunderstorm of feelings you can't even find words for? I've been hoping and praying that something will come and kill the electricity or unplug the tv so I can finally stop watching. Josh was a tornado in my head. Powerful, destructive, and breathtaking. My brain was a building that has been damaged by the wind he brought and left with. My throat was dry and my hands were cold. My heart was heavy and my lungs were slow. I felt nothing. I never understood the term "homesick" more than right now. But you see my home was not a place, nor a location. My home was a boy with brown eyes and an expert on the drums.