My Jerk Husband ... (Jonghyun)

25. Cant you accept my love?

I shook the thoughts away and looked at her again.

Why is she shaking like that? I never hurt her before did i? Is she really that scared? Does she see me as a monster? I mean yes i'm really mad right now but its because she tried to hook me up with Dani! She is just a past i dont want to remember! I dont like her anymore!

My look softened of the thought that she is scared of me.

I moved closer to her little by little trying to not scare her more.

When we locked eyes all the madness in me was gone like a wind blew it away. She was so damn beautiful i couldn't take my eyes of her. I really fell for her hard.

How is this possible in such a short time!? What is she doing to me...

I moved closer and she just looked at me wide eyed. She didnt moved nor said a word.

When i stood right in front of her and put my hand up to caressed her cheek. My thumb went up to her cheekbones lightly, It was so soft it was really hard to hold back to kiss her right now. My heart beat was crazy right now. Its beating like its going to jump out of my chest. Can she hear it?

I blushed of the thought that she can hear it! Damn this is so embarrassing! I looked down and smiled to myself. Aishhh what is wrong with me? She probably thinks that i'm crazy now! ㅠㅠㅠㅠ

"J-jonghyun?" She said lightly making me look up to her again. My eyes widened in shock! Her face was so close right now our lips where just a few cm away.

She had the same shocked expression.

"Mina..." i started, i will confess my love to her. I need to! I just cant hold it in any longer! Every time i see her my heartbeat goes crazy and every time i see her around other guys like Taehyung there is a pinch in my heart afraid of losing her. Okay... i now she is not really mine... or... we are married... that makes her mine right? Aishhh idk...

"There is something i need to tell you!" I said looking deep into her big brown eyes.

She looked at me curious and i took a deep breath.

Just when i was about to start she interrupted "Is it about Dani?"

I flinched at that name and sighed moving away from her "Stop it Mina! Stop talking about her!"

"Why? She is my friend! I thought you still like her? Arent you back together now?"

I furrowed my eyes "Who said i like her?"

"I-i thought... i mean... she is your first girlfriend? People never forget about their first love..." she said looking down embarrassed.

What is that supposed to mean?

Does she like someone?

"Mina... i told you before... and i will say it again now..." i hold her hands squeezing them tightly "I like you"

She looked at me and her eyes turned dark "Jonghyun! Stop this already! This is not funny!"

"I'm not joking!" I said raising my voice a little.

She tried to pull away her hands but i just hold them tighter "Mina! Cant you see that i'm serious!? Cant you see the honest and sincere in me?"

I pulled one of her hand up to my chest pressing it against it. "Can you feel it? Can you feel how hard it is beating? Can you hear what you do to me? I'm going insane! I know! But i cant help it! I really like you Mina!"

She looked down "Jonghyun... i...." she stopped and sighed.

"Mina! Just tell me! I know i was being a big Jerk since we met... and i know you hated me a lot... but cant you accept my feeling? Can you give me a chance?"

My heartbeat was faster then before now waiting for an answer. She was quite and it took her a while to answer.

It must be shocking to her all of this right now.. all of a sudden.

"I..." she started and i looked at her curious. My heart is about to explode. "I'm sorry"

....

What was that? This pain... it hurts so much... just this two words shattered my heart to pieces... it feels like she just ripped my heart out...

"W-what?" I asked hoping for my ears to hear wrong.

She pushed my hands away and moved back a little "i said i'm sorry! But i-" she was interrupted when the door slung open.

"Yah!" That asshole came in again "Stay away from her!" He said pushing me away..."Aishh why do you have to talk so quite i didnt got a word!" He said rolling his eyes.

He was trying to eavesdrop?

Aishh this... kid...

"Yah! Cant you just leave and leave us some privacy?" I glared pushing my hair back in frustration.

"Why would i? Is it wrong to visit my girlfriend?" He smirked crossing his arms.

My heart sunk...
The pain from before was even worth now.

Was it that what she meant? About the you cant forget your first love?

She knows him for a long time... is he really her first love? Are they really dating?

I could feel my heart beat stop.

Am i dead now?
Why do i still feel this pain?

My question i asked her before Taehyung got in, is answered now... she cant accept my love, she cant give me a chance... she has Taehyung...

I didnt dare to look back at Mina and just left the room running down to my car. I need to get away from here... i need to get my mind straight first....

This pain really was getting worth any minute

She is never going to be mine...

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I'm so sorry this is a really lame chapter... but i wrote the next part already! And its a but better i hope... sorry again...
The next part will be up a little later...

Xoxo Miley