"I thought you were going to your friend's house" Jess asked with a slight smile on her face as i stepped into "our" room well i had to sleep constantly with her cause every night one of us would be running to the others bed to feel more cosy and safe so we decided to be in one room.
"Yeah i just want to grab my stuff"
"So your not coming back"
"I don't know yet"
"Why"
"Because i don't want to make this harder and i am so messed up right now i just need some time away from you so i can think straight of what i will do" its true though i still don't know if i wanna be here or not. Part of me tells me to stay because i love her and i am so attached to her right now but on the other hand the other part says that i should stay away cause its better for the two of us
"What will you be doing" i asked
"Well I uhm I have a da-a-t-e with Liam" she said
"Oh" i couldn't help but frown at what i just heard
"Please stay"
"Stop it ! Stop making me more and more attached to you while you clearly going with a guy and will have some great time while i would be heart broken .. You can't do this to me"
"Im not enjoying it"
"Well it doesn't seem like it ... Im so done with this ! You were very good to me and treated me so well .. Without you i wouldn't be here now but i can't continue like this we just need to forget everything that happened between us and stay just as friends .. Please this is hurting me so bad"
"Anna i love you" she teared up
"You are doing nothing to prove or save this love .. It seems like I'm the only one fighting but im done" tears escaped from my red angry eyes.
I held my bag and headed to the door, i couldn't help but look back to see her one last time before i get out of her life. I turned around slowly to see her sitting on the edge of the bed crying her heart out with her palms covering her eyes. I dropped my bag and went to her without even thinking i wrapped me hand around her tightly to stop her tears she was killing me.
"This is better for the two of us" i said
"Why does always have to end with a goodbye"
"Because we are not being able to work this out"
"But i want us to be together"
"Jess i love you more than anything, trust me, but this is destroying the both of us, we are falling deeper and deeper and we cant stay like that, Liam doesn't deserve to be cheated on and i just didn't figure out anything, besides your life would totally change if we continued this way. You can always count on me as a best friend"
"I just wanted ..."
"Shhhhh everything is gonna be okay this way i promise"
I stood up again and she followed me to the door i faced her, my eyes attached to her big glittering ones, driving me crazy, i whipped off her tears and gave her a warm hug. She need it, well i needed it too more than anything, this might be our last one, who knows. The thoughts of this aches my heart and tear it apart. I managed to put a smile on my face after seeing her eyes nearly dried. Se leaned in quickly and attached her lips to mine kissing roughly i couldn't resist her but i had to.
I backed off after a moment "bye" i said and went downstairs and into Ashley's car
"What took you so long gosh i was about to die" she said
"Lets just go please"
"Okay"
The drive to Ash's house felt like forever after thinking constently about everything and i was really nervous for meeting her parents and telling them that i had to stay for a while. They are very great and they treat me like their own daughter i am sure they will have no problem with that but i justdont like to be in someone's way or something and i definitly dont wanna be asked about my life right now
"Finally .. We're heerreee" Ash said parking the car and i checked my face for the last time cause i do want to meet them with a horrible crying face
"Please dont be this weird" i smiled
"Who are you and what have you done to my Anna"
"Im just more grown up"
"Oh im sure tonight the real Anna is gonna have fiun with me and we are gonna bring old times" she said. Well i hope so cause i missed times were we sit and enjoy everything, listen to music, make jokes, laugh our asses off, i even miss times where Justin used to make excuses just to come and see me in his sister's room and we would do silly stuff to him. I hope we make that tonight
Ding dung ... We have to ring the bell twice before any response
"Why dont you just use your key" i nagged
"Because im too laz..."
"Oh hello there girls" Mrs. Anderson, Ash's mom, Stacey she was a great women whom i respected and loved so much, welcomed us in
"Oh hey Anna ! How are you sweety ? Its been a long time since we met" Stacey smiled warmly and gave me a huge hug
"Hey Mrs. Anderson .. Its a pleasure to see you after all this time" i smiled back
"Oh whats up with Mrs. Anderson thing.. Just call me Stacey like old times, please" she said and i nodded
It seemed that she was alone in the house i didnt seem to find Mr. Anderson anywhere and neither Justin, well im glad because i dont want it to be awkward not now atleast. We went in and Ash showed me the room i would be staying in and she helped me put my stuff then we headed back to the kitchen to help her mom with food
Jess's P.O.V.
I feel so numb and empty i didnt want any of this to happen but i just cant do anything about it. I somehow know its my fault for not fighting for what i want but im just too scared to face everyone, to be judged, to tell the truth to my mom and to Liam. This thing is so hard and it needs time but on the other hand i wanted Anna so bad and i dont want to lose her like that
*are you ready babe xox* Liam texted
*yeah im wating for you :)xx* i texted back. I feel so bad
I put on the new black heels i bought today that fits perfectly with my dark purple tight, short, sleevless dress. I waved my hair and pulled it to the back then added some slight make up to complete the outfit. I love my look actually but i wasn't happy.
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