Start all over again (SasuxFemNaru)

Part 24

Sakura's POV

Sasuke has been frequently going to her apartment and spending time with her daughter. Looking at them from a distance pains me so much that I can barely breathe. I decided to wait it out for a month but no matter what happened; Sasuke always goes to her, loves her, cherishes her and sees only her. I couldn't think straight anymore. 

I let myself be engulf with the feeling of helplessness and it struck me, I can always ask Naruko... 

I know that its selfish to just ask someone to stop loving the man I love but how can I just stay in the background, looking at my ring, thinking that it is alright because I have his ring... yes, I have his ring... yet, that is the only thing I have of him. Something that he can take if he wants to... But Naruko has him, heart and soul.

It was around 2pm that afternoon that I decided to do that. I was in by her doorstep and felt the gruesome reality that this is how my helplessly in love I am. I rang the doorbell and waited for someone to open the door.

"Coming!" a soft voice that I haven't heard in a while. The voice of both, Sasuke and I, longed to hear but unlike him, I was selfish... Selfish enough that in those years her voice was nowhere to be heard. 

The door creaked open and in the entrance was a figure of a woman who I, both detest and love. A woman who stole the man I love long before I even notice.

"Sa... ku... ra..." she said with that stunned-looking face clearly stating the mixed feeling she is having because of my presence,

"Naruko... May I come in?" I asked politely, as I know that this maybe the last time I will do this,

"Ahh... sure! Please, make yourself comfortable..." She said with her bright smile that always radiated our past days, her voice that always made the missions less boring with her grunts and complains; her happy-going personality that held such dark past... 

She closed the door as I went in and with no further ado, I faced her and I could clearly see that she was scared,

"Naruko... please... I beg you..." I said with a voice slowly cracking, my eyes watering, my hands trembling and my mind desperately clinging to the picture of a man I can never have yet still insist on taking.

 I looked down on avoiding eye contact as if trying not to make a memory of whatever face she wore while I begged for her to give that one thing I desired most, "... Please don't take him from me... I love him... Please... I beg you..." I continued,

"Sakura... I... I don't know ... what you are... talking about..." she said with a hint of guilt and hesitation, a mild pinch of sadness and worries, but a spoonful of lies,

"YOU KNOW WHAT I AM TALKING ABOUT NARUKO! YOU KNOW FULLY WELL WHAT I MEAN!" I shouted, feeling stupid and jealous, betrayed and saddened, heartbroken and pain. I couldn't take it, I fell on my knees with my hand covering my face as my eyes flood with tears as salty as the person I am,

"Sakura... I'm sorry..." she said with her voice again, that voice that took him, the voice that I once recognize as my best friend, someone I trusted and cared for years ago... 

The voice of the woman who is taking what I desired the most,

"Naruko, if you really are sorry... Don't take him from me... Please... You were my best friend... yet, I tried my best to be happy for you years ago... but now... You can't just take something I tried my best to obtain... Naruko... Why are you so cruel that you seem to have forgotten that I can also feel? And you know what I feel at this very moment..." I said with a calmer voice trying to stop it from cracking, 

"... betrayed, heartbroken, pain, sadness, jealousy, helplessness, stupid, and naïve... But I don't care anymore... as long as I know that in the end of the day, he will remain by my side... I would give up everything... my pride, my ego, and my best friend..." I said,

I can see from her eyes that my words were like a thousand small needles stabbing her from all parts of her body, the pain was very visible that she can never deny it. I stood up, eyes puffy and head aching,

"Sakura... I'm sorry..." She said as she covered her mouth with her hands, her eyes tearing up and her body trembling. She was guilty. She was sad. I walk to the door deciding to leave. I opened it but before I left I said one more thing, "Naruko...if you can't give me this... I will hate you..."

--==Time Skip==--

I played it like I was an innocent fool. I went to Sasuke's house and waited for him to return; I would greet him like before and cook something for him. Take care of him, and like before hoping that he would see me... just me... 

But sadly, he came home late at night, stumbling in every step. I came to his aid and smelled a strong scent of sake,

"Sasuke? Why are you drunk?" I asked but never received a reply, I accompany him to his bedroom but because he was heavy and drunk, I could not have the time to switch the lights on,

I lay him in bed. He suddenly grabs my wrist and held me tight in a warm embrace,

"Don't leave me... please... I love you..." he said and in my ears they sounded so sweet that they could put me to sleep. I could barely see his face with the poor lighting but I didn't care... cause I knew that it was Sasuke... and nothing mattered but him,

"Sasuke?" I asked as he gently caresses my face and planted warm kisses on my face,

"Naruko... I love you..." 

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