Start all over again (SasuxFemNaru)

Part 17

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Gaara's POV

Waiting... yes... that's what I am doing... waiting for her to notice me... only me... Naruko...

The whole day I bonded with Chisuke, my beloved's daughter... After the encounter with Sasuke, I couldn't take the thought of my mind...

Is he still the one? Is she still in love? Are they both ready to face whatever consequences they go through knowing that they had something that no one, not even me, can replicate? Just how badly is she hurting because of these situations?

"Papa? Is something wrong?" a small voice called out to me, it was Chisuke's, and I nod. Looking at this child who has taken a place in my life and heart. Am I ready to accept the fact that we aren't meant to be?

I gestured her to come sit beside me and she did, "Chisuke... Do you want Mama to be happy?" I asked,

"Of course, I do... Mama is always hurting... but Papa, did you notice?" she said,

"What?" I asked,

"Mama has become livelier than before... it's like as if she has forgotten my real father... like she has moved on," she said. I mentally said to myself, no, Chisuke... it's not because she has forgotten him... it's because, because of you, Sasuke is always there... the love of her life just within reach but desperately, trying not to. He, being there, is enough to make her happy...

I looked at her and suddenly engulf her in a hug. I'm sorry, Chisuke...but even if you say that she is happy. The pain that comes after the thought that he is not there to stay because he is to be married to someone else is greater that the pain that he is there for you and not for her.

"Papa... What's wrong?" she asked,

"Nothing... I just miss you..." I reasoned,

------Time skip------

We arrive at Naruko's apartment. I opened the door to be greeted with a Naruko, standing in the center, looking very satisfied with the house,

"Mama! We're home!" Chisuke suddenly shouted,

"Welcome home... and it seems that your Papa is here too," she said,

"Papa came to my school and gave me a gift," she shared,

"What is it?" she asked looking interested,

"I haven't checked it yet... bit I'm sure Papa gave me something I'll like... Mama, I'm going to the bedroom to change my clothes and to check my gift..." she said as she ran to the bedroom,

"Be careful, Chisuke..." she said, looking at her daughter,

"How have you been?" I asked, taking her attention,

"Well... and you, Gaara? I hope that things are going well in your side," She asked, but I didn't believe that she was 'Well'... I approach her... closing the gap between us...

"Naruko, you idiot... You didn't have to come back if it's hard... You could have just stayed..." I said with pain lingering in each word,

"Gaara, is such a worrywart... I'm fine... And Chisuke is happy here having so many people taking care of her," she reasoned,

"And Sasuke? It seems that he already knows about Chisuke... How did he take it?" I asked, curious of what the raven's reaction was,

"Yeah... He learned about it somehow... We already talked about that matter and came to a conclusion to always be there for Chisuke," she replied,

"Naruko... You know that I have certain feelings for you... and I know that you are not ready to be in a relationship because you are still in love with him but... if you're only giving yourself pain by being here witnessing him moving on while you stay and keep everything to yourself... I would rather take you away from here, by force," I said, Naruko... you don't deserve this...

"Idiot... it's against the law," she replied, even if it is...

"Well, if it is the only way to keep you from getting hurt... I'd rather go against the law," I replied as I smile from the thought,

"Still as sweet as ever... but I don't want anyone to think that I'm taking advantage of you because you have feelings for me... and I think that I'm almost ready to move on... I just need more time to become accustomed to the idea of him getting married off to someone else," she said, but I knew she wasn't... I knew that almost was never there... because she wasn't at all ready...

"Then, if you say so... I will be waiting," I said. We suddenly hear a small giggle in a certain direction and when we looked of my right, we saw Chisuke smiling and teasing us,

"Mama and Papa are being sweet to each other... Mama... are you getting married?" she suddenly asked,

"...soon..." I said, earning a shocked face from Naruko,

"Yay! I can finally have a complete family with Mama and Papa..."Chisuke suddenly said hugging our waist,

"Mama... Papa... Thank you..." she added, I notice that Naruko was looking down and thinking deep,

"Soon... After Mama has feelings for Papa... After Mama is ready... But Chisuke..." I said, I knelt down to meet her eyes, "... Mama is not ready... And I think Mama will never be..." I added,

"Doushite?" Chisuke asked,

"Because Mama still loves your real Papa..." I said, I notice Naruko widen her eyes,

"Mama still loves my real Papa... But he is not here... and *sobs* Mama is... *hic*... always sad... *hic*... because of... *hic*... him," Chisuke said in between her sobs and tears,

"Mama is sad because she misses him so much... It's not because he has hurt Mama... it's because Mama was naïve enough to leave..." I added,

"Why did Mama leave then?" she asked,

"Because Mama was scared that you're real Papa is not ready... that he still can't be a father to Chisuke... that he might leave her," I said, "... But Mama was wrong..."

"... Mama was... wrong?" she asked,

"Yes... She was very wrong... Because your Papa was ready... your Papa was hurt too... because Mama left him without saying a word... that is why Mama is sad... because she left him," I said,

"Mama... why did you left him?" Chisuke said, looking at Naruko,

"I'm sorry, Chisuke... I was scared that time... I was young... I didn't know what to do..." Naruko said kneeling down holding Chisuke's small fragile hands, "I thought that it was for the best but... now that I see things clearly... I am regretting it all... I took you away from your father... I let you grow without him by your side... maybe that's why I came back... because I thought that I can make things right... but it's much more complicated than that... and I can't get back what I lost... I can't give you a complete family but I can try to give you a father," She added, her eyes wet from her tears and her face full of regrets,

"Mama... it's alright..." Chisuke responded, I looked at the situation unfolding, it was amazing how honest Naruko can be towards her daughter, I kinda envy, Chisuke... because even if one says that Naruko loves Sasuke... you can see that Naruko loves their daughter more,

"I know that life is scary, Mama... I know that in all that happy smiles and laughter we had that you were always scared... because Mama is a worrywart like Papa Gaara..." Chisuke added, smiling the signature smile that Naruko had,

"Chisuke... I'm sorry that I can't be the father you wanted," I said as I caress her cheeks and wipe her tears, "... but I know that your Papa would never want to be replaced... because, without Chisuke knowing, your Papa loves her so much..." I added, as she suddenly gave me a hug, crying her heart out... I can't replace him... but I can be a man who can be there when you need me...

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