[ cobwebs + flies ]

chapter 8

this fic is getting so much love whaT????? like dude 6k reads is sOooO cool i would've never thought a stupid generic pastel/punk anonymous fic would get this many reads aHhHhH thank you all so much :') i always read the comments on here and they make me feel so hecking happy ohmygod thanks for dealing with my writers block and inconsistent update schedule !! im basically the dan howell of writing fics,, so thanks for dealing with my four updates a year lmao i try my best guys ily all trust me

(holy christ the first three or so chapters of this story are so bad im gonna drink bleach kill me pls why didn't you all tell me)

-dan-

philisamazing: so you know howell?
iamnotonfire: as in daniel? yeah i know him

this'll be interesting.

philisamazing: so im sure you know about his attitude,,

oh god. here we go.

iamnotonfire: right......? if you're here to gossip abt him 2 me im all ears ahaha
philisamazing: no no no no
philisamazing: im not holding a grudge against the guy or anything
iamnotonfire: okay... so what then 😶
philisamazing: its just that ya kno im sure hes a nice person i just wonder y he h8s me so much lol
iamnotonfire: oh,, haha i don't think he hates you.. you're too hard to hate 😌

wow, smooth move dan. real frickin smooth

philisamazing: i mean i kind of did call him a gaylord when we first met sooOoOoO..
iamnotonfire: are u str8?

jesus christ, dan. you and your stupid cocky attempts to change the subjects all the time. this is why nobody likes you.

philisamazing: where in gods name did that come from
iamnotonfire: soz idk the only people who really say gaylord are homophobes or straight ppl ngl so
philisamazing: oh haha...
philisamazing: wait have i seriously not told you my sexuality
iamnotonfire: not that im aware of?
philisamazing: so technically you're hitting on me not even knowing if im into dudes or not
iamnotonfire: ya. basically hehe
philisamazing: omg im so sorry i didn't tell u
philisamazing: im pan w/ a male preference :)) as for the gaylord thing, tbh i wasnt thinking i was just upset on that day 2 begin wiv
iamnotonfire: aw im sorry you weren't having a good day 😕 but thanks 4 lettin me know,, i was worried i wudnt have a chance with u anymore
iamnotonfire: oh god that was cheesy ignore that
philisamazing: thanks :)) and don't worry lmao its kinda cute (^_^)

diD HE JUST CALL ME 'KINDA CUTE????'

iamnotonfire: oh haha its nothing ☺️

this had been going on for a month now. a month of going to school every day and listen to phil tell zander or one of the others about what him and mr.iamnotonfire talked about the night before. it was adorable. he never left any details out. he even let the others know when an emoji was in a message because apparently that "means he really likes texting me." he also said he learned that from buzzfeed so i laugh and tell him how stupid it is to keep my walls built high, as if i'm wearing an invisible set of armor. he's started to flirt back, too.

philisamazing: im sure you look great today btw 😊
iamnotonfire: me? damn are you sure you didn't mean to send that to someone else
philisamazing: nobody with such a gr8 personality like u is ugly ok? ur amazing 💓
iamnotonfire: you're better than me. your hair is red!! thats the coolest thing ive ever seen!!!!
philisamazing: haha im dying it a diff colour next week so dont get used to it
iamnotonfire: excited to see what that'll be, mr. lester :)

it's nice being close to him. but it's hell because he can't know that the person he's talking to is me.

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there are only two things
that control us —
our fears
and our love.
- j.s.