Behind the Screen

Chapter 3

*Lauren's POV*

dontpitymysorrows:Y/N, I'm sorry about the other day

youtellmeimconfusing:It's fine I understand, but let's not talk about that. How have you been?

dontpitymysorrows:Well, it's been 4 days since I've last talked to you and I don't feel as though any things gotten better then the usual, but I told a friend about how I've been feeling and she's been trying to help me.

youtellmeimconfusing: That's amazing Lauren has her help been effective?

dontpitymysorrows: Well I haven't had any breakdowns lately, so I'd say somethings working. But just because I'm not having breakdowns doesn't mean I don't feel so down and dull all the time. I feel like a complete buzzkill when I have group hangouts and such. I'm the one not talking and listening to everyone else's day's or their boy troubles.

youtellmeimconfusing: Has the anxiety calmed down around people?

dontpitymysorrows:I'm not as anxious I suppose, but I've missed these talks.

dontpitymysorrows:and I'm sorry about the other day, seriously like who am I to tell you that you don't care about me, I'm very glad you do and when my mind is being really harsh on me I tend to feel as though no one cares or I'm unloved

youtellmeimconfusing: I know Lauren I get it, I really do but stop apologizing it's no ones fault, tell me how has work been?

dontpitymysorrows: Well, we just came from Boston and today we're in Virginia.

youtellmeimconfusing: I wish I had your job. What do you do again?

dontpitymysorrows: I'm a uh...photographer.

youtellmeimconfusing: That's really cool, take some pictures for me okay?

dontpitymysorrows: don't worry, I'll send you the best ones ;)

youtellmeimconfusing: I appreciate it, I really need something nice to look at

dontpitymysorrows: go look at your girlfriend

youtellmeimconfusing: We're on a little break right now

dontpitymysorrows:Aww how come?

youtellmeimconfusing: She thinks I'm cheating on her...

youtellmeimconfusing: with you

dontpitymysorrows: That's funny

dontpitymysorrows: I'm not even gay

youtellmeimconfusing: She seems to think otherwise

youtellmeimconfusing: But I think this is for the best, I haven't really been feeling as I should toward her lately, she's been really irritating me. I hate when you stop liking someone and every little thing they do becomes annoying

dontpitymysorrows: Tell me about it lmao that's the shit I don't like

A/N:Everytime I update this book, I either just had a breakdown or I'm currently having one. So the updates might be frequent.