Gia Nicole..(BWWM )

chapter 22

Chapter 22
The funeral this morning was very awkward. I was picked up in this limo with France and Tiana, also my grandparents. I didn't say a word in that car. I left the funeral around 1 and haven't told Jason a thing about it. There is a banquet around 6 tonight that im gonna go to, and im hoping jase will join me. I still havent cried which is pretty weird. I feel a pang in my heart though. I just lost another piece of me that i will never get back. I haven't done much once i got home. I made myself some hot chocolate and now in sitting in my window seat. But of course im joined by the love of my life. "Gia nicole" i heard jase enter my room quietly "hi" i muttered. He sat infront of me looking out if the window "whats up? Whats happenening? You've been off since yesterday" he took my hand "my dad died last week. I found out yesterday, his funeral was this morning" i set my drink down "frankie, im so sorry. Damn, why didnt you tell me?" I shruggeed poking my lips out "not a big deal. Your mom was in the hospital. Im fine" he looked at me for another second "you always say that. The whole im fine thing and youre not frankie! Every time i can see the pain that you try and cover up all of the time! Frankie i can see right through that, it doesnt work anymore! You are not okay and i need you to tell me these things so i can help you! I don't want to see a person such as yourself in the place you're in. Its okay to be upset, or sad sometimes francesca. But you just brush it off as if its nothing. Baby i love you, but i dont want you to constantly lie to yourself. I hate it for you" he exasperated. I couldn't say anything
A warm liquid slid down my cheek. It finally hit me now. His arms came around me while i soaked his shirt "i just dont know what to do jase" i cried "i dont like any of this and its all hitting me at once" he kissed my forehead "i feel as if im losing more things than in gaining. Jason you cannot, leave me. Promise me you won't leave" i pulled away from him "i promise baby" i hugged him while he kissed my shoulder and neck. "I love you" i said "i love you to baby girl"
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"Just act natural" i relaxed jason. We're at the dinner now, that he thankfully agreed to come to "hey i am relaxed, thats you" maybe it is me. "Sorry" i ran a hand through my hair "dude, chillax. Why are you so nervous" we were sat at the main table infront of everyone "people talking to me" i raised an eyebrow "im here and that's all that matters" he's too cocky "frankie!" I smiled seeing a favorite person of mine. My cousin athena was here "hey" she hugged "are you okay?" She asked "im dealing with it" she nodded "that's good. Who is that?" She whispered "jase. My boyfriend. Jase this is athena, my cousin" he waved "i thought you said we were gonna be single together forever?" She asked "yeah but he decided to stalk me so here he is" i bit my lip "oh is the food good?" I asked "no. It tastes like ass. Even the fucking water tastes like ass. How the fuck does that happen?" Athena always makes me laugh "can we go to fridays after this jase?" We're going regardless of his answer "if you want to" he said "frankie, mommy asked if you can do a speech" i shook my head towards France "nope" rest in peace dad, but i don't want to do that. "Hey france!" Athena waved at her "hi" france left "how long have you known about france?" I asked "uh since she was in the womb duh" everyone knew huh "i mean are you talking about the city? Girl ive know about that since the 3rd grade" i tilted my head "first of all, France is a country. And secondly, why have i just found out about her?" She shrugged taking a sip of her drink "anywho. hey jase how you doing?" She started laughing "im fine, you" she shrugged "bored. Im ready to go" i agree "same. Im tired. I have an excuse" i grabbed jase's hand "i drove here, im gonna casually sneak out" sounds like her "okay lets go" we said bye to everyone, went to fridays and then went to my house since he said the baby is always crying. I dont have a problem with it, as long as he's with me tonight, then its alright