I try to make you notice me
The good things about me
Not the bad things
I wanna leave a good impression on you
I don't wanna imprint into your mind
That's I'm a horrible person
That I don't have a heart
Or feelings
I smile just to show that I'm ok
but I'm not
The minute I cry you accuse of such insignificant things
Why can't I just cry because I'm sad?
I wanna be happy
I wanna laugh without faking it
I wanna show you all the true me
but you keep putting me down
Making my confidence weaken
Until there's nothing left
What am I suppose to do?
I wanna show you the real me
I try and I try
but you don't notice
What can I do?
To show you the true me?
I truly want to be happy
I want to let go of the past
and look forward to the future
but you won't let me
You continue to remind me of mistakes
You stab me deeply in the back
You talk about me as if I wasn't there
Am I that invisible?
Am I not worthy of your praise?
I try to show you the good in me
but you won't acknowledge it
You won't even smile at me
I act like I'm happy
A smile always on my face
but when I'm alone
All of my emotions break free
I don't like to show you my tears
Because I feel so vulnerable
I feel insignificant
I want to feel important
As if I was part of the family
What can I do?
To make you see the true me?
I think of suicide
I think of picking up that blade and slicing my wrist
but I can't do it
I won't show you that I'm weak
but mostly I won't do it
Because I can't do it
I'm afraid
I'd rather be a doormat
Than hurting myself
It's not worth it...
I don't know what to do anymore
I'm so confused
Lost and Alone
And I hate it
I want to know what I want
I want to make my own decisions
I don't want to give in to your demands
The important thing is that I tried
Isn't that what counts the most?
