The Things I Leave Unsaid

7. Don't Save Me

Drowning in fake smiles,

Waiting on a hopeless dream.

No one ever realizing

Because to them

I probably seem

Just the same as always.

I'm completely fine,

Until the door closes

Just in the nick of time.

I let the tears fall,

And then all the walls

I've built in secret

Come crashing down

On top of me.

It's getting hard to breathe

But please don't save me.

I smile,

Not because I don't need your help,

But because I don't want to drag you

down.

I laugh,

Not because someone cracks a joke,

But because I'm trying not to frown.

I listen,

Not because I care about your

problems,

But because they help me

to forget my own.

I nod,

Not because I agree,

But because if I don't,

my cover'll be blown.

What I want to do is glare at the world

every time I'm in a bad mood.

Laugh when I am criticized

for having a bad attitude.

Disagree and not be afraid

of being too negative.

To veer off my designated path

and for once, just choose

to live.

What I actually do is

freeze a smile on my face,

Ignore the facts I can't erase.

Agree with the world

and keep the peace,

All the while knowing

this isn't me.

Im afraid they won't like

The girl behind the mask.

I'd be happy to unveil her,

But no one ever asks.

So for now,

I'll smile and say that I'm fine,

But one day in the future

There may come a time

When this life I'm leading isn't enough

And I realize the world

might be too tough,

And while change might seem

too scary right now,

Maybe then, I'll feel

like it's safe to allow,

Others to see the me that's inside,

The one I can't seem to help but hide.

Maybe it'll happen one day

but please,

If nothing ever happens,

don't try to save me.

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