Jongin soon returned from the business trip his attitude change though...like since he came back.....
Jongin came in the house quickly pulling his tie off and his eyes became bloodshot almost like he's been crying for days.
"Jongin," I said and touched his right arm He freaked out. "Don't touch me!" He yelled and bumped me by the shoulder and went upstairs.
Erin is way better I thought and went into the living room and sat on the couch.
I leaned my head back and looked at the ceiling.
"Mom...Dad...what is love ?" I asked and the I added, "Why is it so complicated?"
I looked at the ceiling and then I got up without thinking I went upstairs.
Passing a clock revealing that it was midnight.
I walked slowly towards Jongin's door and it was open with Jongin in bed with a button up white shirt and plaid pants facing the wall.
I looked at him. "Jongin..." I said in a gentle tone his sniffling was noticeable that he was crying.
"Jong-" he interrupted by yelling, "Just leave me alone...I'm fine ," his voice was broken.
"Don't say that...you know how many times I said "I'm fine " I know you aren't," I said
"She's was there...why..." His voice was shaky.
"Jongin..." I trailed of . "Do SeoYun..." His voice was quiet and shaky.
I walked in front of him and sat there seeing tears slide down his cheek.
"Jongin ,"I said he looked at me.
"SeoYun?" He questioned "Jongin, its me ....Adalyn," I said he looked at me and smiled.
"Stay with me forever," he said holding my hand.
"SeoYun," he added I watched his eyes slowly close.
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Jongin was asleep so I went to my room and slept.
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As morning came I began to change my look. No more of that sad and abused side of me. I want to create a new me.
I went to the bathroom and grab scissors out of the cabinet.
I hesitated at first,but I began to cut my hair.
"Adalyn what are you doing ?" Jongin asked looking at me from the doorway.
"Changing the way I look,but also changing me," I said
I now had a pixie cut and not only was it cute it revealed better sides of me like: my eyes that use to be hard to see through when getting punched by a abusive husband, my smile that I use to fake when I was around people,and my ears that never were shown because of David.
"Let me see you," Jongin said he looked at me and smiled.
I went up to him and he put both hands on my shoulder.
"About last night..." He trailed off.
"Don't worry about it I get it ," I said and smiled and left the room and went downstairs wearing only a tank top and sweat pants.
I quickly grab some orange juice and began eating an apple off the fruit bowl.
"I've been thinking...maybe you should live with your sister," Jongin said
"I did that once and my sister almost died,but I like staying here I feel safe ," I said
Jongin looked at me I put the orange juice down and also the apple and looked at Jongin.
"Why do you keep pushing me away again?" I asked
"I'm not trying to ," he said
"Jongin, if you keep doing that I might as well pack my bags and live with Erin ," I said
"Why is Erin in this conversation ?" He asked
"I like him and he likes me," I said
"Aren't you married?" Jongin asked
"Yep, to a jackass ," I said
"While I was gone did you go to Erin's ?" Jongin said
"Yeah, so what?" I asked
"That guy is a fuck boy did he touch you?" He asked I don't know why I was being protective of Erin,but something got to me.
"No he is not! Erin is sweet and he cares for me at least ," I said
"Yeah right," he said
"He at least knows that I care for him," I said
"yeah,but one day he will only ask you for sex and break up with you right after and move on to the next girl!" He yelled
"You're Jealous aren't you! You're are just telling me lies so I won't be going out with him!! Well guess what I am!!" I said
"Like I would be jealous of some dumb geek!"he said
"This argument is stupid!!" I said
He looked at me and nodded.
"Back to what I was saying, Rose keeps calling me lately asking where you are... So I'm thinking you should live with her or with another family member," he said
"Jongin I want to stay here," I said
"Why?" He asked
"To be with you... You make me happy at times ,"I said
"I already told you before...I'm a complicated guy and a person no one wants to date ," he said
"I'm the one who's complicated, Jongin!" I yelled
"Do you know the hell I went through and how many times I almost died from protecting myself and the people I loved,"I said
"No,but do you know how I suffered from losing the only person I loved .... I couldn't even leave that hospital until I recovered and when I did I had to show up to her funeral and see her lifeless body!! I suffered from bullying and had to come home pretending I was okay...I hadn't been able to feel happy since that day...I don't want to lose anyone like I lost her,"he said
The anger built and I couldn't control my anger so I smacked him.
"We both know this won't work at all,but if you think about it we aren't perfect for each other... You bastard ," I said I realized the things Jongin said about us not working out and him being complicated... Was all true I don't love him anymore.
He left the house and I was alone I sat on the floor and held my knees against my chest and cried.
"Maybe this world is so fucking cruel that I can't be with you..."
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