My Androgynous (girlxgirl)

Chapter 25

Nicole Fontanilla

Kumalas sa pagkakayakap ko si Mike at bumangon mula sa pagkakahiga sa kama.

"What's wrong?" takang tanong ko.

"Nothing. I just need to go," sagot ni Mike.

Matalim na tiningnan ko siya at tumawa ng mapait kaya biglang napatingin siya sa akin.

"Am I really a shitty lay?" tanong ko ng mahina at tiningnan siya ng diretso sa mga mata.

"W-what?" gulat na tanong ni Mike. I can clearly see the guilt in his eyes that he was trying so hard to hide.

Too bad, I can see right through him.

"Because if you haven't noticed, you're treating me like your personal whore," I continued trying to be nonchalant even though I'm feeling really shitty and cheap.

Not that it's anyone's fault but mine.

"No accusations, I just want to know. Every fucking time we have sex, you can't wait to get away from me. I mean, we're friends right? We can talk like normal adults after a satisfying sex. What's the rush?"

Mike gaped at me.

His mouth formed an 'O' but no sound came out. He tried to open his mouth to talk but all that came out was "um .."

I chuckled bitterly.

"It's alright, Mike. No need to feel guilty. I can take care of myself. But if that's how you want this to play then fine, I get it."

Mike was still standing at the bottom of the bed, gaping at me. He was frozen. He looks like a dick to be honest.

Napailing na lang ako at humiga ulit sa kama. Pinikit ko mga mata ko hanggang sa marinig ko ang pagsara mg pinto ng kuwarto.

Hindi ko pa din idinilat ang mga mata ko kahit alam kong ako na lang mag isa. Why do I feel so alone and lonely? I don't love him, right? This is just sex, right? I'm not allowed to have feelings to my bestfriend's ex boyfriend. The guy who's still fucking in love with my bestfriend.

I can have sex with him. But I'm not allowed to have feelings for him. Just no. This is foolishness. This is so fucking stupid.

You're so fucking stupid Nicky.

••••••

Dylan Ella Young

"What's fucking wrong with you?" bulyaw ni Axl sa akin.

Kakatapos lang namin mag-lunch sa cafeteria at pagalit na hinila ako ni Axl dito sa school grounds para bulyawan at pagalitan.

Na para bang may karapatan siya.

Kanina sa cafeteria, ni hindi man lang ako matingnan ni Max. Tsk. What a fucking coward. Dalawang linggo na kaming nag-iiwasan, hindi nag uusap at sa totoo lang nauubos na ang pasensya ko.

Kaunting-kaunti na lang talaga.

Tinaasan ko ng kilay si Axl.

"You're really asking me that?"

"Stop being sarcastic and answer me! Ikaw ang may kasalanan dito, Ella! Hindi ako! Tapos ikaw pa ang may ganang umarte ng ganiyan?" naglalabasan na ang mga litid ni Axl sa sobrang gigil sa akin.

Mabuti na lang malayo kami sa mga estudyante at walang nakakarinig sa amin. Or kung meron man, I don't give a fuck.

In all honesty, we haven't spoken since the incident at the condo. I refused to speak to her and she was too angry to talk to me so .. this is the first time that we really dared to talk about what's really happening.