Jay Cee El

Twenty Three // I Hate You Two

I could see Liz beginning to go along with Julie by the look in her eyes. "Well, yeah. Bu-"

"But nothing. It's a great song and there is some great parts for you to sing. I mean, obviously we'll have to divide the song up. I was thinking that I could sing the chorus and then you girls back me up or something. Then for the versus we can do somethi-"

"Enough," I cut her off, annoyed with the way she was behaving. "You do realize that you aren't the band leader. You aren't better than Liz and me, you're in the same position. You can't make these types of decisions. And how are we supposed to know if you could sing or not?" I asked, crossing my arms.

"What are you saying?" Julie asked, standing up from the couch in a rush. I mimicked her actions and glared at her.

"I think you know what I'm saying. How many yes' did you get?" I asked.

She hesitated. "I got three." She said.

"Well I got four, there for I think that you should stop trying to call the shots." I said.

"So what? Do you think that makes you better than me? Sorry honey, but that just shows that the judges were clearly not hearing right the day of your audition." Julie said.

My eyes narrowed and I stepped closer to her. "You wanna fucking say that again?" I asked.

"The. Judges. Weren't. Hearing. Right." She said through clenched teeth. If I was a cartoon, I'm sure that there would be steam coming from my ears. If there was one thing that I did not tolerate, it was people making fun of my voice. I know I'm not the best singer out there but I sure as hell can hold a note. I didn't need some Madonna wannabe telling me that I couldn't.

"Well they clearing weren't seeing right either, being that they let you in!" I said, waving my hand towards her. I heard Liz gasp and when I looked over at her I saw that she had tears in her eyes. Really Liz? You're going to fucking cry? I shook my head and looked back at Julie, smirking when I saw the icy glare that was being sent my way.

"At least I didn't dye my hair a trashy color? Did you know if makes you look like a whore?" Julie bit back.

"You would know what a whore looks like, wouldn't you? You were practically the boot camp slut, everyone thought of you as one anyway." I said, raising my voice.

"Girls, please, ca-"

"Shut up for once in your Goddamn life Liz! No one cares for what a prude like you wants to say." Julie snapped, yelling at Liz. Liz's tears started to fall and I shook my head at Julie.

"What hell is your problem? Why do you hate Liz so much? She has done nothing to you. She's invited you into her home and has been nothing but nice to you! Seriously, stop being such a bitch. If you don't want to be in this band then the door is right there. No one is stopping you." I yelled.

"You know what, fuck you! I didn't want to be in this fucking band anyway. I hate you two and I hope you rot in hell." Julie yelled, pushing me backwards. I fell onto the couch, Liz getting pushed down next to me. Julie stormed off, her heels clicking on the floor as she walked towards the patio door. She opened the door and then slammed it on her way out.

I sighed and leaned back against the couch, closing my eyes. I really didn't want to fight with her, but she just kept pushing my buttons. It was surprising how long I lasted until snapping at her, to be honest.

Julie's P.O.V

I sniffled, wiping my eyes as the tears spilled out of it. I felt like such a weak person for crying over this stupid fight, but I couldn't help it. I didn't want to fight with them. I didn't want to piss them off like the way I did. I don't know why I did. I mean, I know why. I shouldn't have been so pushy when it came to what we sing. I really should've listened to what Liz had to say.

She was right, it was important for us to get along. We can't do anything if we don't get along. We needed to be friends first, bandmates second. But it was too late now, I've fucked it up. I always fuck up everything, it shouldn't be a surprise that I messed this up too. I guess in a way it was important to me. I know I didn't want to be a part of this band yesterday, but it's been such a long twenty four hours. This drastic change of heart left me confused.

And Liz wasn't a prude, she was just shy. I'm sure that Caitlin thinks she's great, being that her and Liz have actually talked. I should have talked more to the two of them. I should have listened and laughed, I should have watched the movie with the two of them earlier today. I really should've. But I was so set in my ways. I thought that I was supposed to want to be a solo artist. I couldn't change my mind for fear of my family telling me that they were right.

"You're going to like being in a band, I promise."

"Just give it a chance."

"You'll make friends for a lifetime."

Those were the things that my family said yesterday morning to me. They all told me that I would like being in a band. But I told them to fuck off and that I knew I wouldn't like it. But I was beginning to grow to the idea of being in a band. Sure they could be annoying, Caitlin won't stand down to me. But I respect that, I really do. It shows that she just wants the best for the band, like I do.

The sliding glass door opened and I heard someone step out. Please don't be Caitlin, please don't be Caitlin. I breathed a sigh of relief when I saw that it was Liz and not the pink haired girl. Pink hair, what a cheap shot that was. I shouldn't have called her a whore.

"Julie? Are you okay?" She asked.

"I'm fine." I said. I couldn't open up to her. She may be nice but I wasn't going to open up to her. She's got a perfect family, she doesn't know what it's like to lose a mother and what it does to you. She wouldn't understand why I'm so cold.

"You're crying." She said.

"No, I'm not. Just... leave me alone." I said.

"It's not good to be alone like this. I'm sorry for what Caitlin said, she didn't mean any of it." Liz said.

"You barely know her, you can't be sure." I said, wiping my eyes again. It was embarrassing that she caught me crying.

"I know, but I'm sure that she didn't mean to make you cry." She said.

"Liz please, leave me alone." I asked, just wanting her to leave.

"Julie, are yo-"

"Liz! Leave!" I yelled. She jumped back in surprise and the hurt that flashed across her face made guilt fill my body.

"I'm... I'm sorry. I'll go." She said.

I sighed as she left and leaned more onto the stone wall. I've fucked everything up and I'm not sure how to fix it.

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Lol there's the chapter. I hope you liked it. Caitlin and Julie are so different... it's such a shame.

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