Toxic{Jacob Sartorius FanFic}

Ch.21

Sam's POV

As I hugged Jacob I started to loosely get out of his embrace. I heard my phone buzz.

I walked over to my phone.

Anonymous number: hi can you tell Jacob I have some of his clothes at my house thanks and it's Vanessa.

Ugh. This bitch. Oh I'll tell him.

"Who was that?" Jacob asked. "No one." I replied using my finger print to get into my phone.

Me: I'll go pick them up.
Read at 9:46 pm.

No answer. She needs some milk.

"I'm gonna go out Jacob." I said grabbing a sweater. "Ok bye." He said waving at me.

I walked out the door.

"Uh hi Sam." Vanessa said. "Hi can I have Jacob's clothes." I replied quickly. "Sure there right here." She said handing me them. "Jacob says thanks. Oh and he changed his phone number so like don't text him." I said taking the clothes.

I turned and walked towards the cab expecting to hear her say something.

Nothing. I just heard a sniffle and a door slam shut.

"Here Jacob." I said handing him his clothes. He looked at me and there were tears in his eyes. "Did you tell something to Vanessa?" He asked choking on tears. He looked at me with his red cheeks and warm tears falling down.

I looked at his phone.

Cutieee💜😊: I don't care if you don't get this Jacob but Sam told me you changed your phone number but I don't believe her. I'm sorry that I shattered your heart into a million pieces, I'm sorry that I supposedly made you change your phone number, I'm sorry that I'm such a screw up, Im sorry that I can't live without you. But it's true. You probably don't want me I don't know why I broke up with you. I didn't even give you a chance to speak. I'm sorry that I wasted your time that you'll never get back. I can't live knowing that I ruined us. So bye Jacob. I'm sorry. I know I'm probably never gonna see you or talk to you again so let me just say it here, I love you. Bye Jacob.

"Did you say anything to her!" He yelled. "No." I lied. "Bye." he mumbled under his breath. "What?" I asked. "Bye." He repeated. But now.......my heart shattered.

Vanessa's POV

I sent that text knowing Jacob wouldn't care, of course he wouldn't. I lead myself to the bathroom. There were tears all over my face. Many people may think "Oh you can write that text in like 1 minute like no it took me ten minutes to be strong enough to send that text. Sometimes people don't understand how hard it is to send a text message. Bye Jacob. Forever. I walked up to the roof of my house. I constantly come up here and think. I look at the stars and think Jacob might be looking at that exact star right now. I can't get my mind off his perfect smile.

Btw he got his braces off😩🔥 he looks even hotter.

He's perfect. Sam's perfect. But I'm not.

I never will be.

I heard someone yell. I stood up looking around. Let's just mention I'm still on the roof. "Don't do it!" I heard a familiar voice say. Jacob.

I ran down the stairs to hide in my room from him. I hit my wrist against my door and it stung really badly. Mostly because I had fresh cuts on that wrist from earlier. I started to get my anxiety. "Oh no no no where is it?" I said scrummaging through my unorganized cabinets in my room. "No no no." I repeated looking for my anxiety bracelet.

My anxiety bracelet calms me down when I get my anxiety. If I don't have it then I turn super suicidal. I start looking for a blade.

"I need a blade." I whined to myself. "No Jacob wouldn't want me to he wouldn't want me you have to stay strong. For Jacob." I said breathing slowly on my knees in my room. "I need to find a blade." I started whining about looking for a blade. I found my anxiety bracelet. I breathed very slowly.

I heard a knock on my bedroom door.

"It's Jacob." I heard him say.

I quickly tried to hide the mess in my room. "Come in." I said softly hoping he wouldn't hear me. But he did.

"I'm sorry!" I said digging my face into my knees. "You didn't do anything wrong though." He said sitting next to me.

"Sure I did. I ruined us." I said. 

He lifted my face up from my knees.

"I love you. You can't ruin us." He said hugging me.

"I'm sorry." I said trying to breathe steadily. "It's okay." He said patting my back.

I didn't have sleeves over my cuts so they were exposed. I tried to hide it. But I couldn't.

"What did you do?" He asked gently lifting up my wrist.

"Nothing." I replied snatching my wrist out of his hand. I laughed. "Fake." He said.

"What?" I asked innocently. "Your laugh. It's fake." He said seriously.

"I saw cuts Van I'm not stupid." He said disappointingly.

"I'm sorry I'm nothing but a waste of space!" I yelled running into my bathroom. "I never said that!" He said running after me.

I heard sniffles. But they weren't mine. They were Jacob's.

I put my head against the door and heard nothing but absolute silence.