The Forced Girlfriend(COMPLETE)

Chapter 24

Chapter 24

"Nick. Please. Listen to me" sabi niya ulit. Still crying.

Tumigil na kami sa paglalakad. Di pa rin sumasagot si Nick.

"Fina, can I talk to Nick?" sabi niya. Hindi ko alama ang gagawin ko. Hahayaan ko ba silang makapag-usap? I really don't know.

"Fina. Please. I know you hate me. But please" sabi niya. Nakakaawa siyang tingnan ngayon.

"Ok. I'll leave" sabi ko. Naglakad na ako. I don't know why i'm doing this but i think they need to talk.

"No. Ellannah will stay" sabi ni Nick tapos hinila niya ako palapit sa kanya.

"Babe, dito ka lang" sabi niya in a gentle voice. So i didn't refuse. Hinawakan pa niya yung kamay ko and i don't want to let go. So i'm staying.

"Ok. I'll be here" sabi ko.

"Sabihin mo na ang gusto mong sabihin" sabi ni Nick.

"Nick.... I'm sorry for not listening to you. I know you didn't cheat." sabi ni Jenny. Bakit ngayon pa siya nag sosorry. Dapat noon pa niya yan ginawa. Ano ba ang gusto niyang mangyari.

"Please comeback to me" sabi niya. Pagkasabi niya nun, humigpit ang pagkahawak ng kamay ni Nick sa akin.

Please come back.

Those words are on replay in my head. Yun ang gusto niyang mangyari... Paano na ako? I'll be left alone. Is this really real? 

"Nagsimula kayong dalawa with lies. You lied about sa 1 month na panliligaw when in fact, you just knew her for 1 day."

"You're wrong. I've seen her thrice since third year.." sabi ni Nick

Thrice?! Tatlong beses na kaming nagkita. I don't even remember!

"But that was all lies and games!! Why are you two suddenly serious?! You bought her that necklace! More than 1 month na kayo! What the hell?! And it seems like you two are going strong! What the hell?! Do you know that i'm hurt?! Do you know that i have always loved you?!" sabi ni Jenny...

Boom! I'm in shock! Sinabi ba niya talaga yun?!

Do you know that i have always loved you?!

That was like the keyword. She still loves Nick. Now it's my turn to tighten my grip on Nick's hands. God! What if they still love each other! Totoo naman yung sinabi niya. We just started with games and lies. How could we be real...

Baka ito na ang ibig sabihin ni Jason nung kinausap niya ako sa park. That was his warning. Sabi niya that night sila naghiwalay ni Jenny. He knew this was going to happen! I should've listened! Pero ano ba ang magagawa ko? I don't trust that guy!

"I thought you wanted me. I thought you needed me. I thought you loved me! No! That wasn't just my thoughts. You said you want me. You said you need me. You said you love me. Then what are you two?!" sabi niya.

Boom! Another bomb dropped... Nakakahurt naman yun. Siguro dapat akong umalis... Ako ang girlfriend pero ang sinabihan ng such meaningful words ibang tao. That hurts, you know.

"Bakit mo siya nagawang mapilit? Bakit mo siya napilit na maging girlfriend mo? Sana pinilit mo muna ako... She is your forced girlfriend. I hope you forced me first. I hope you forced me to come back to you. Sana pinilit mo rin ako" sabi niya... At umiiyak pa rin siya. She's still crying meaning she's sincere. 

Pagkatapos niyang sabihin yun, bigla akong hinila ni Nick.

"Let's go" sabi niya. Iniwan namin si Jenny na umiiyak.

Nang makarating kami sa parking lot, nagstart na siyang magsalita.

"Ano ba ang pag-iisip meron ang babaeng yun? Gusto niya na pinilit ko siya noon?! Eh pinagsigawan ko ngang minahal ko siya at hindi ko magagawang lokohin siya tapos the next day, si Jason na kasama niya! Paano ko siya mapipilit?! Tapos ngayon pa siya nagsorry?! Damn her! Ang tanga!" sabi ni Nick.

Dahil hindi ko na mapigilan ang nararamdaman ko, well hindi ko alam kung anong nararamdaman ko. Basta i just feel something... Yinakap ko siya... I just hugged him with my head resting sa may chest niya.

"So this is what was bothering you" sabi ko.

"What?"

"Nung gabing nagkita tayo sa park, you knew na wala na si Jenny at si Jason. You were there nung nagbreak sila. Si Jason lang ang may alam na narinig mo yung pag-uusap nila. Anong narinig mo?" tanong ko sa kanxa. I just figured it out. Narealize kong kaya bothered si Nick kasi nakarinig siya ng ayaw niyang marinig that time.

"Yung mga sinabi niya kanina. Yun ang narinig ko." sabi niya.

I just feel sad kasi there is this girl na minahal ni Nick. That's just so sad kasi may isang babaeng nagbigay ng saya sa buhay ni Nick. Corny man kung iisipin pero ano nga ba ang gagawin ko. Si Jenny ang unang nagmahal at minahal.

You said you want me.

You said you need me.

You said you love me.

Naalala ko yun. Sinabi ni Jenny yun. Di ko alam kung ano ang mas bibigyan ko ng pansin. Yung "said" na past tense o yung "want" "need" at "love" na present tense. What if nothing changed. What if natabunan lang yun ng galit ni Nick kaya di na niya maramdaman yun na want, need, at love. Paano kung hindi na siya galit? Ano ang laban ko dun eh yung masasabi ko lang sa kanya ay "You said you like me"... Di na pwede yung want, need, or love. Kay Jenny na ang mga salitang yun. Anong laban ng like dun? Sa unang tingin palang, talo na ako.... Sana di nalang ako nakikinig ng mabuti sa english para di ko maiintindihan ang difference ng past, at present. At para hindi ko malalaman na may future na maaaring magdala ng sakit... 

I hugged him tighter. First time kong maghug ng lalaki na punung puno ng feelings. Ito lang ang naiisip kong paraan para ilabas tong nararamdaman ko. I feel like I never hugged any other guy like this. And i think i'm not gonna be able to give this one of a kind hug to other guys. I feel happiness and sadness. I don't know kung para saan yung mga feelings na yun. This is just intense. Masyado naman akong bata para makaramdan ng ganito. I just don't understand myself anymore. It's like i'm this whole new person. I started to change when I met Nick....

I just want to hug him for like forever kasi parang ito ang pinakaright thing sa buong mundo at para hindi na siya makalayo sa akin. When did I become this possessive? I thought this is not really serious. I thought I could get out of this easily and unscathed. 

Pero tingnan mo naman. It's getting harder to get out of this relationship tapos hindi pa nga ako nakakalabas, i already feel sadness. Sadness, because i don't feel that he's really mine. Sabi niya i'm his Ellannah. But I don't even know if I can say that he's my Nick. Sabi ko noon, i will be a not so nice girlfriend. Sabi ko noon, i will have my revenge. Sabi ko noon, wala akong planong makita yung pagmumukha niya for the next 50 years. But hey! Look at me right now. Where's my revenge? Why am I hugging him like there's no tomorrow? I can say that i just committed a mortal sin. I can say that i am an idiot.

Am I really an idiot for falling this hard?

Pesteng Jenny yan. Excuse me for saying that. 

Sana di siya tanga na iniwan si Nick para wala ako dito na yumayakap sa kanya.