The Vampire Diaries Imagines #Wattys2017

I'm Here For You

It hurts. It hurts to be heartbroken, to be left alone without any help or comfort when you need it so badly. Every single part of me, which is still alive and breathes (although it seems nearly impossible now), is moaning in pain. This torture is enormous and situation just keeps getting worse. And nothing else matters, I just want to disappear, to be gone forever, so there will be no misery, no past and no future. But I can't just crawl in my bed; I can't erase my existence from this world. There is still family, still friends, still something to live for. But not today. Today I want to be left alone. Just to have a break from everything and everyone. I will keep smiling, keep pretending, living, but tomorrow. This is a promise I will keep.
"Stefan, hey, how are you?" But he didn't pick up his phone, so it's just me and his voicemail. "I am so sorry, but can we do our project some other day? I'm not feeling well. Thanks."
He will understand. He always does, that's why Stefan is such a good friend. No need to explain or force yourself to do something against your will in front of him.
So, hopefully, that's it for today. Now it's only me, my old teddy bear and cheesy movies about break ups. I lie down on my bed, turn laptop on and browse for something to watch. I got so into movie titles, actors, plot twists that I haven't even realized that there is somebody else with me in my room.
"Bad choice." Stefan's husky voice scared me. "You won't like it."
God, how long has he been here?
"Oh, hey!" I said, but awkwardly. This scene became so unsettling all of a sudden. "You got my message, right?"
But Stefan didn't answer back. Just nodded, still standing a few meters away from my bed. Silence between us became so unnatural. He tries to look through my walls, his eyes are so deep, so full of kindness. He cares about me. He wants to help. And suddenly all the pain, all emotions, feelings are showing. I tried to be strong for so long. I tried to be tough, because it is the right thing. And Stefan sees it. I am breaking slowly. Scars become visible. My thoughts are full of unanswered questions: Why did Marcus do that? Why that girl? I tried to be perfect. I really did. But no, he found a new one. She is pretty, witty, with beautiful long blonde hair. Just his type, I guess.
"Stefan." My voice is shaking. I can't talk, every single word, every thought is torturing me. "Just go. Please."
And I can't control myself anymore. Walls are breaking, tears are at the corners of my eyes. Stefan understands. He always does and knows what to do.
He comes closer, sits near me, and gently, carefully hugs me. And this simple gesture is touching and heartfelt. When I start to sob he just plants little kisses on my cheeks, temples, nose, until pain fades. Until I can breathe again.
We sit in silence for some time. He caresses my shoulders and arms and places kisses again on the cheeks.
"I feel so stupid." I say all of a sudden. No answer.
"Breaks up are all the same. It will hurt in the beginning." I force myself to smile. What else can I do? "Just don't hide your feelings."
But Stefan will be tired of listening about this drama. Everyone will get tired eventually.
"I'm always here for you." His voice is so deep, so pure and sincere. "Just don't hide anything from me."
And I just can't say no, so I smile and kiss him on the cheek.
"I won't."
Maybe this break up will be different? It feels like it.