Finding You

chapter 7

I went into school feeling drowsy, but also eager. To see Zay. I was surprised that he wasn't at school yet when I sat down in my first class.

Even when the bell rang and the teacher started class, he didn't show up. I began to grow worried and I guess Savannah noticed.

"Hey, perk up. You seem all jittery this morning, what's goin' on in world Amber?" she asked in the middle of class.

"Nothin's goin' on in world Amber. Just a bit of a crush." I didn't keep anything away from Savannah.

"So. Tell me the latest." Considering how she acted when I said he talked to me, she was going to blow up when she heard this.

"He kissed me yesterday."

"Ok. And?" I waited quietly for it to sink in. "Wait, WHAT?!" she said too loud.

Everyone started to stare at us. We ignored them. Or at least I did. She flashed everyone the finger, getting her a couple of chuckles from the jocks and grumbles from the others.

"Ok, you and I are so talking at lunch."

"Why at lunch? Why not right now?" I asked.

"Because, the teacher is about to tell me to move my seat. I'm being too loud," she said.

And then the teacher came up beside her and said, "Savannah, you have to move your spot. You're being too loud. How many times will I go through this with you two?"

Savannah mouthed every word, along with 'I'm good like that' at the end. I rolled my eyes as she got her stuff and walked to a different seat.

The seat that Zay usually sat in. That meant that he would have to sit next to me. My heart fluttered wildly in my chest as I saw him walk in, finally.

He looked at the seat next to me, but didn't quite meet my eyes. My hearts fluttering stopped as I realized he did that on purpose.

He sat down, still avoiding eye contact. He stared out of the window, even though he was across the room from it.

"You know, the blinds are shut. You can't really see outside right now," I said trying to make conversation.

He said nothing in response. The only reason I knew he heard me was because he turned his head away from the window and looked straight ahead, staring off into space. But the effect was still hot.

"Um, I guess that's better." I sadly glanced down at my desk. Another possibility went through my mind. Maybe that kiss didn't really mean anything to him. "Hey Zay, I-"

"Look, Amber. Forget about what happened yesterday. I obviously don't want to talk to you right now. So please, just shut up."

I don't think I would have been able to pick up all of the pieces that my heart shattered into when he said that. He looked at me for the first time that day and I thought I saw a flicker of remorse in his eyes. But I couldn't bring myself to meet his gaze for any longer. I felt worse than I did the night before.

I didn't pay attention to him or talk to him for the rest of the class. Right when the bell rang I went to the bathroom.

I didn't cry. Surprisingly, I didn't. My eyes just couldn't produce tears. I stayed there, in a stall, all the way into lunch.

I only thought about leaving when I got a text from Savannah asking where I was. No later then when I said in the bathroom, did she appear at the outside of my stall.

"Amber, you had better open this door and tell me which freak in this school made you cry. Before I go and beat up everyone," she said making me smile.