Secret affairs

Chapter 32:

It was the first time that the kids went back to school. Wendy didn't want me to home school Reese anymore so she sent him back to normal school.

It is also the first day that Wendy has gone back to work. So I am with Dylen alone. We watch a movie. I put on veggie tales. He seems to like it. The good thing is since I am legally also his mom I will never lose him.

She won't be able to take him from me unless I do something stupid, which I wouldn't. So rather she likes it or not I will always be in her life in one way or another.

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That night I make dinner. Everyone sits down at the table. I say, " How was school."

Reese says, " It was really good but I miss you being my teacher."

Lucy doesn't say anything.

I say, " I miss being your teacher also. Wendy how was work?"

She just shrugs. Ugh why is she still acting like that. I hate how her and Lucy are treating me. The only two who really even want me here is Reese and Dylen. They will always love me no matter what. I just wish I could say the same thing about Wendy.

After dinner Wendy ask me to come talk to her. We go up to my room. I sit on the bed. She says, " I know this is hard on you but it's harder on me. I don't think we will ever get back together. I am not going to throw you out though. You will go back to just being a nanny. Dylen is still your son but the other kids aren't yours. Don't act like Reese's mommy anymore."

" It is kinda hard to go back to something that I never was."

I start crying. She says, " Well then learn how to because you are nothing else around here."

She walks out. She just broke my heart into a million pieces. Ugh I hate this feeling. If that is what she wants then there is nothing I can do about it.

I put a song on and get lost in my thoughts.

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much

My scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

Drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
I'm pissed 'cause you came around
Why don't you just go home
Cause you channel all your pain
And I can't help you fix yourself

Your making me insane
All I can say is

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much and
Our scars remind us that the past is real

I tear my heart open just to feel

I tried to help you once
Against my own advise
I saw you going down
But you never realized
That your drowning in the water
So I offered you my hand

Compassion's in my nature
Tonight is our last stand

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much and

Our scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

I'm drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
You shouldn't ever came around
Why don't you just go home?

Cause your drowning in the water
And I tried to grab your hand
And I left my heart open
But you didn't understand
[But you didn't understand]
Go fix yourself

I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life

I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much and
Our scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much and

Our scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel.

I did tear my hurt open for her. I can't believe I ever let her in. Would I change any of it? Well no I wouldn't because those were the best days of my life. I am just happy that I got a son out of it.

I think I will just find another place to live. I have a few places in mind even though I don't really want to go to any of those places. My life might suck there but it is to hard living here.