My mind has been going crazy. I don't want to lose her. I feel like I may lose her at any minute though. When her husband gets home is she just gonna leave me? Is it going to end and I am suppose to just be the nanny? I have never been just the nanny and I don't want to start. I hate feeling like this. It kills me everyday. I would lose myself if I lost her. Ugh why does my stupid mind have to put these thoughts in my head. I wish I could just shut my mind up.
I get out of bed and start Reese's home school. We start with reading. He has a spelling test. I tell him the words and he writes them down.
After we are done I check his work. He has gotten only three wrong. I smile and tell him how he did. He smiles at himself.
We then go to math. He gets on the laptop and start answering questions. I go and feed Dylen while he is doing that.
After I am done I go and check on him. He is finishing his work. Next I read a book to him. He falls asleep and I let him take a thirty minutes nap since he has an hour lunch break right now.
****
When Lucy gets home we go to the park. We walk around the park before they go and play. I watch them play. I smile at how much fun they are having. Lucy is holding Dylen and playing.
Lucy is a good big sister.
A mom walks up to me and says, " So which one is yours?"
" All three."
" You don't look old enough."
" I am dating their mom."
" Eww." She gets up and walks away."
I take the kids home after that. I can't stand people sometimes.
****
That night Wendy is laying in my arms. She looks at a picture of her husband and her. She frowns like she misses him.
I get up and go to my room. If she misses him so danm bad then she can just brake it off with me. Yes I am jealous but can you blame me. She is married to him.
I put a song on and start dancing and singing,
" Hey, hey
You, you,
I don't like your girlfriend!
No way, no way!
I think you need a new one
Hey, hey
You, you,
I could be your girlfriend
Hey, hey
You, you
I know that you like me
No way, no way!
No, it's not a secret
Hey, hey
You, you
I want to be your girlfriend!
You're so fine, I want you mine,
you're so delicious
I think about you all the time,
you're so addictive
Don't you know what I could do to make you feel alright?
(Feel alright, feel alright, feel alright)
Don't pretend I think you know I'm damn precious,
And hell yeah, I'm the mother fucking princess.
I can tell you like me too, and you know I'm right.
(Know I'm right, know I'm right, know I'm right)
She's like so whatever,
You could do so much better,
I think we should get together now.
And that's what everyone's talking about!
Hey, hey! You, you,
I don't like your girlfriend!
No way, no way!
I think you need a new one.
Hey, hey! You, you,
I could be your girlfriend
Hey, hey! You, you,
I know that you like me,
No way, no way!
No, it's not a secret.
Hey, hey! You, you,
I want to be your girlfriend!
I can see the way, I see the way you look at me,
And even when you look away I know you think of me.
I know you talk about me all the time again and again.
(And again, and again, and again)
So come over here, tell me what I want to hear,
Better yet make your girlfriend disappear.
I don't want to hear you say her name ever again.
(And again, and again, and again! )
She's like so whatever,
And you could do so much better,
I think we should get together now.
And that's what everyone's talking about!
Hey, hey! You, you,
I don't like your girlfriend!
No way, no way!
I think you need a new one.
Hey, hey! You, you,
I could be your girlfriend
Hey, hey! You, you,
I know that you like me,
No way, no way!
No, it's not a secret.
Hey, hey! You, you,
I want to be your girlfriend!
Oh
In a second you'll be wrapped around my finger,
Cause I can, cause I can do it better.
There's no other, so when's it gonna sink in?
She's so stupid, what the hell were you thinking?
Oh
In a second you'll be wrapped around my finger,
Cause I can, cause I can do it better.
There's no other, so when's it gonna sink in?
She's so stupid, what the hell were you thinking?
Hey! Hey! You! You!
I don't like your girlfriend!
No way! No way!
I think you need a new one
Hey! Hey! You! You!
I could be your girlfriend
No Way No Way
Hey! Hey! You! You!
I know that you like me
No way! No way!
No it's not a secret
Hey! Hey! You! You!
I want to be your girlfriend
No Way No Way
Hey! Hey! You! You!
I don't like your girlfriend!
No way! No way!
I think you need a new one
Hey! Hey! You! You!
I could be your girlfriend
No Way No Way
Hey! Hey! You! You!
I know that you like me
No way! No way!
No it's not a secret
Hey! Hey! You! You!
I want to be your girlfriend
No Way No Way Hey Hey."
Wendy walks in and just wraps her arms around me. I just let her hold me. I want to cry but she doesn't deserve to see my tears. Ugh sometimes relationships can be so hard.
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