Secret affairs

Chapter 29:

It is Thanksgiving. We are having dinner here. Wendy sister is here with her family. Tammy and Lily are not coming. I know that it is going to be hard on Wendy without Tammy.

I still can't believe that she is still acting like this.

Wendy's sister has three boys. Reese, the boys, and I have been throughing the football around.

Wendy walks out and yells, " Dinner time."

We all run in. Wendy has ordered everything we are eating. I had told her I would cook but she didn't want to hear of it. She told me that it was my day to just have fun.

She ordered turky, ham, lobster, mashed potatoes, cream corn, green beans, cranberries, stuffing, pumpkin pie, wine and juice.

We all dig in. I don't know why she got lobster but it is a good change.

After dinner we sit down and talk about different things as a group. Wendy puts in a snoppy movie about thanksgiving. We sit there like a big happy family. I guess we are a big happy family.

Wendy's sister has been being sweet to me that of late. Her sons seem like they are good kids. I wonder why they don't come over here ever. Her oldest boy is 15, the middle is 10, and the little one is 5.

Somehow Wendy's husband gets brought up. They talk about how it would have been nice to have him home for a holiday.

I get up and walk to my room. I haven't been in here for a while. I lock the door so that no one can come in. I start crying. I know Wendy misses him. It doesn't mean she doesn't love me. However what if she doesn't know how she feels. I hate having to come in second place. It ain't cool.

Wendy unlocks the door. She walks in and holds me. I say, " How did you get in?"

" It is my house. I have the key to every room."

I nod. She says, " What is bothering you?"

" I will sing you a song for you to know how I feel."

I start singing,

" I've been sitting here staring at the clock on the wall
And I've been laying here praying, praying he won't call

It's just another call from home
And you'll get it and be gone
And I'll be crying

And I'll be begging you, baby
Beg you not to leave
But I'll be left here waiting
With my Heart on my sleeve

Oh, for the next time we'll be here
Seems like a million years
And I think I'm dying

What do I have to do to make you see
He can't love you like me?

Why don't you stay
I'm down on my knees

I'm so tired of being lonely
Don't I give you what you need

When he calls you to go
There is one thing you should know

We don't have to live this way
Baby, why don't you stay

You keep telling me, baby
There will come a time
When you will leave his arms
And forever be in mine
But I don't think that's the truth
And I don't like being used and I'm tired of waiting

It's too much pain to have to bear
To love a woman you have to share

Why don't you stay
I'm down on my knees

I'm so tired of being lonely
Don't I give you what you need

When he calls you to go
There is one thing you should know
We don't have to live this way
Baby, why don't you stay

I can't take it any longer
But my will is getting stronger
And I think I know just what I have to do

I can't waste another minute
After all that I've put in it
I've given you my best

Why does he get the best of you
So next time you find you wanna leave his bed for mine

Why don't you stay
I'm up off my knees

I'm so tired of being lonely
You can't give me what I need

When he begs you not to go
There is one thing you should know
I don't have to live this way
Baby, why don't you stay, yeah."

I start crying. She holds me close. She says, " I love you and only want you. I have filed for divorce. It should get to him tomorrow at the latest."

I start crying happy tears. I say, " I love you too."

Wendy's sister runs in and says, " Wendy you need to get downstairs right now. There are guys here that you need to talk to."

Wendy runs downstairs and I run after her. She goes to the door. I'm not that far away from her. Their are two soldiers there. One of them says, " Ma'am I'm sorry to tell you but your husband died."

" What happened?" Wendy ask crying.

The other soldier says, " He was on his way home to surprise your family for thanksgiving. On his way home the chopper was hit by gun shots and it went down. I'm sorry ma'am. His body will be here tomorrow."

She nods and cries harder. I walk up to her and wrap my arms around her. She closes the door. Reese and Lucy start to cry. I try to comfort them but can't. This sucks. Wendy hasn't let me touch her since I hugged her. She is crying on her sister's shoulder.