Without You

Chapter 19

I wake up to a text.

You forgot. I know your little secret Allison. I could mess up your life in a flash.

Jason. Jason Carter knew my secret. My secret I have been hiding from the entire world. He being 1 out of 3 people that know. Jam, him and I. He promised he won't tell, but I had to do something for him. He hasn't said what. He could mess up my life he's right. My life is a mess already.

I sit up and look over at Jake sleeping on the bed. He didn't understand why I wanted to sleep on the ground or why I gave him the cold shoulder.

I felt like KMP figured me out better than I have figured my self out. I felt like he knew more than I do about my feeling for these boys.

AllieC: Jess my feelings are everywhere.

YourBestFrandJess: What have the boys done to you now?

AllieC: Nothing really. Just I need to sort out me feelings. They keep messing with me.

YourBestFrandJess: I don't mean to like you know mess even more but you have to keep in mind these boys are playing a game to get your heart and get in your pants.

AllieC: I know. That's what makes it even worse. Jake- I admitted to myself I felt something there and then I-I saw him with a cheerleader. Jason hates my guts. His feelings are everywhere. But I can't help but feel happy when he's around. Yesterday he wanted Hunter to beat me up and punch me. Hunter just threw me down and knocked the wind out of me but only because the team needs me today, as much as it pains them to admit it. And I haven't told u about the bus. I was almost raped by the bus driver. The whole team has pictures of me. Jess it's awful. It's so painful. I can't do it. My back is all raw. My hearts in a million pieces. I can't do this.

I never clicked send. I couldn't click send. It would be me telling my feelings to someone. I can't let the world know about me. I'm just a sad broken girl that happens to have skills in football and an amazing horse to race. I couldn't click send. I just left a simple reply.

AllieC: I know.

Then I opened up my stream of messages with Jam.

Jam: Allison we need you here. Star is down. We don't know what's wrong with her.

AllieC: Jam I can't get there. I'm 3 hours away. What's happening? Should I leave as soon as possible? Symptoms?

Jam: I'm here with my cousin. He's a vet tech and was here helping me feed. Star is lying down in her stall, breathing heavy and won't even get up for grain.

AllieC: Call a vet, any vet you can get. I'll pay for it later. I will be back as soon as I can. I have to play here at 5:30PM, if we win I'll be back earliest at 12:30PM. I could also forget the game and take a taxi back and be there by 9:30AM.

Jam: No Allison you made a commitment. It's not like you could do more than what we are doing. I will see you earliest at 12:30PM. Don't worry. The vet will get it under control. I'll text you updates.

AllieC: I also made a commitment to the horses. This is his life we are playing with.

Jam: Stay, wherever you are. Good lick. End of discussion.

Jam: *luck

AllieC: Fine thanks.